行动管制令第……
孩子已经20多天足不出户。
他们每天早睡早醒,吃,喝,玩,乐,坏蛋一下,在屋子里从大门窜到后院,一楼二楼跑上跑下….除了偶尔抢东西哭闹,其余时候尽都是欢乐声。
孩子的世界没有昨天或明天,只有当下。
他们觉得很幸福,因为几乎每一天的24小时,爸妈都在他们身边,这对现代的孩子而言,是多么奢侈的事。
而我呢?
这突如其来的瘟疫让人不自觉焦虑起来,但也因为行动管制令待在家闭关,减低杂念,心里渐渐平静下来。
焦虑时心里时时祈福,平静后也时时祈福,这两者间的心念一样,但心境不一样。
我把家里一大一小冰箱都囤积满满的食物,孩子学校的家长很热心,帮群组里的妈妈们订购活力农耕蔬菜和水果。
这时候还能吃到高原活力农耕农夫用心种植的蔬菜,心里感动万分。
每一次收到蔬菜箱,一打开,感觉好像能闻得到高山大地的味道,摸着蔬菜,都能感觉泥土的温暖。
好友说她年轻的侄子和太太都在前线工作,两个年轻的生命,还有很多很多的前线人员,不分昼夜,在为全国人民尽他们最大的努力,控制疫情。
他们的每一天都在极大的挑战中渡过,每次想到他们,我就告诉自己“我要尽自己最大的努力乖乖待在家,好好过日子。”
每天,只有当下,没有等一下特别急的事,没有明天要赶着去完成的事,于是…………可以安然的打开冰箱,以非常珍惜存库里食物的心,细细的计划着早餐,午餐,孩子下午点心,晚餐….,在平常的料理中来点不一样的创意(因为食材有限),然后非常享受那个可以全然投入在为自己和家人烹饪的时光。
那个迎着晨光熬黑米粥,吹着午后热风做pizza,或在雷雨咆哮声中炒菜,煎蛋……的时光,都是那么那么的美好。
有人说烹饪时的情绪很重要,那是一种能量,这个能量伴着食物一起被享用者吸收,吸收到他的身,心,灵。
怪不得,我总是觉得外婆和妈妈做的菜特别好吃,因为她们都带着慈悲的心煮每一道菜肴。
在家画画的画室间有一个落地玻璃门,门前不远有一棵大树,一棵喜欢在风中起舞,在雨中飘来淡淡翠绿味,在夜里细语的大树。
当我在画布上无尽地延续生命的线条时,它在那儿陪伴着我,静静地微笑。
每一幅画里都是我和自己展开的对话…..。
每隔几天,就和家乡的爸妈,弟弟弟媳们视讯,搞笑逗乐他们一下。
每天都传自己煮的好料照片给妈妈看,然后炫耀说自己煮得比她好,青出于蓝(我特爱跟我妈开玩笑)。
每天总有些时候,静静坐着,闭上眼,听听大地的声音。
平时的车辆声减少了,于是鸟叫和虫鸣变得更清澈。
在这安下心过好当下的日子里,我还能做些什么呢?
小黄花慈善教育基金会的两个中心因为行动管制令,也同时关闭了。
我们都担心本来已经是低收入户的家庭,在这段时间可能还要面临零收入的困境,于是小黄花的员工待在家里开始致电每个家庭慰问他们的情况,然后为这些家庭订购足够一家大小的食物,确保他们至少可以温饱。
孩子学校的老师因某个亲戚是前线医护人员,而得知医院缺乏医疗防护用品,于是孩子学校善良的家长们决定募款购买防护用品捐赠医院。
最后在和老师详细沟通之后,我决定由小黄花发起这项募款项目,让更多人知道这件事,让更多都想为疫情付出的人民一起集合力量来帮助前线人员。
学校的家长们有的帮忙张罗订购防护用品,还有一些一起动手做起手工艺品义卖筹款….而募款反应非常热烈,家人,亲戚,邻居,朋友甚至国外朋友,各界人士都出力支持。
前几天新闻报道有一个家庭,爸妈和小孩在空无一人的公园里呆坐在石椅上,警方上前询问才发现,这一家人家里连米都没有,已经好几天没吃东西了。
警察人员自掏腰包给他们买食物。
我看到这则新闻,眼泪真的快掉出来。
于是我们(小黄花)马上透过两个贫民区域中心孩子的家长致电询问其他需要帮助的家庭,食物提供从33个家庭一下子增加到151个家庭。
我们不知道未来将会放生什么样的事,我们只能好好的珍惜活着的每一刻,好好爱自己,爱身边的人,爱这个大家一起共存的地球村。
有时候有些事情的发生是要我们安静下来聆听某一些生命的声音。
这段时间我又看到了好一段时间没看见的蜻蜓飞进家里,孩子兴奋的追着它边跑边跳。
平时只在树上停歇的鸟儿,飞到院子的草上散步,松鼠在汽车稀少的马路上大摇大摆。
我们继续祈福疫情尽早结束,继续勇敢抗疫,继续互相扶持,继续在这段安静下来的时间沉淀。
让我们用爱来化解这一场战役。
The …. days of MCO
The kids have not gone out for about 20 days.
Everyday they are sleeping and waking up early. Their daily activities are all about eating, drinking, playing mischievously, looming around from the entrance till the backyard, running across the floors in the house. Most of the times they are filled with joys and laughter, except occasionally crying of fighting for toys.
In the innocent children world, there is no yesterday or today, but at the moment. They are embraced by happiness because their parents are with them almost 24 hours in a day. This is literally a luxurious for the modern era children.
What about myself?
This sudden pandemic makes people feeling unconsciously anxiety. Despite of that, my heart gradually calmed down and distractions are reduced because of retreating myself at home during the Movement Control Order. Pray humbly when panic of anxiety attacks or even tranquillity. The two state of minds are the same, but the mood is distinct.
I have stocked up the fridges with load of foods, the parents of my kid’s school are very thoughtful, they are helping other mothers to purchase the organic farmed vegetables and fruits. Having to eat the organic vegetables and fruits farmed by the farmers at this very difficult time, it had deeply touched my heart.
Every time when I receive the vegetables box, it reminisces me the good nature of the high mountain and the warmth of soil.
A good friend of mine told me her nephew and wife are working at the frontline, joining along with many other frontliners, working very hard day and night for the nation to strive the Corona virus.
They are living their day in a hard challenge, whenever I think of them, I will tell myself to stay at home and live my live to the best.
We have plenty of time in day as we away from a busy pace of life. Thus, I may unhurried to open up the fridge, with the heart full of appreciation towards the foods to plan the breakfast, lunch, teatime and dinner menu for the kids. Creativity is what I need to spice up the meals (due to the shortage of ingredients) and fully enjoying the preparation time of foods for myself and family.
Cooking the black rice porridge at the welcoming morning light, baking pizza with the afternoon breeze or frying egg or vegetables during the thunderstorm seems to be like the very best moments in life.
Someone said that emotion is important during cooking because that good energy will be going along with the foods, while the people enjoying the foods can absorb all these good energies to nurture the body, mind and soul.
I always feel that the foods prepared by my grandmother and mother is exceptionally delicious and the reason is that they are preparing the foods with compassion.
I can see a big tree outside through the ceiling glass from my painting studio. It likes to dance in the wind, pouring with good scent of greenery during the rain, and talking softly at night.
When I continue to create the lines on the painting canvas, the tree is there to accompanying and returning smiles to me.
Each painting is the conversation and monologue between me myself and I.
Every few days, I will be video calling my parents, my brothers & my sisters in-law, making fun and bring laughter to them.
I send my food photos to my mother everyday and telling her I am the better cook (of course I am only joking to my mom).
There are some hours in a day, I will be sitting peacefully, closing my eyes to listen to the voices of the surroundings.
The cars are getting lesser these days, so the bird and worms chirpings are more audible.
In such a peaceful days, what else more I can do?
The two branches of Little Yellow Flower Foundation had temporarily ceased operation due to MCO.
We are worrying particularly for the low-income family because they will not able to generate income during the MCO. Staffs from the Foundation started to caretaking and prepared foods to make sure that they are able to cope with the difficult time.
The teacher in the kid’s school get to know that hospital is running out of medical supplies. Hence, the kind parents started fund raising to donate medical supplies to the hospital.
After discussed with the teacher, I decided to raise fund and to create public awareness through the Little Yellow Flower Foundation.
The parents in the school providing their kindness by sourcing medical supply, and some even made handcraft to seek donations. The fund raising had received tremendous responds from the community including those who are living abroad. Everybody show their best support on the fund raising.
There was a news saying that a family of 3 were sitting at the bench in the park. They have been starving for 3 days and a kind police bought them foods.
When I get to know this news, my tears almost burst out.
Thus, our Foundation took immediate effort to reach out more unprivileged families the food supplies and helps, this had extended from the initial 33 families and now a total of 151 families are covered with the helps from the Foundation.
We are unable to predict the future, but we may cherish and live every moments of our life. Love yourself, loving people that around you and also love the mother earth.
Sometimes we need to unwind and quiet down ourselves and to listen to voice of the nature.
During the time, I have seen dragonfly flying around the house after so long, the kids were chasing it up and down happily. The birds that normally resting on the tree are roaming at grass of the yard, the squirrels swaying freely on the road with lesser cars.
Let’s pray for the pandemic to end as soonest, continue to bravely fight the Corona virus by supporting each other as well as taking the chance of this quiet time to collect your thoughts.
Let us resolve this battle with love.
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闰华姐在工作坊播放的其中一首音乐作为写此文章的音乐背景:
The Rose - by the King's Singers (Album: Circle of Life)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bbilXDkmTPQ
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题目: 一朵又一朵脆弱且坚韧的玫瑰 即将盛开
早上醒来,五点半。
没有半点倦意,睡不长,却很深沉。
醒来后,打开电脑,
听着前天闰华姐在工作坊播放的这首 acapella。
不断重播,开始打字。
对于此工作坊;有好多激荡、好多学习、好多感触。
先说我的感受。下一篇再说我的学习。
感恩闰华姐在如此繁忙的工作时间表,愿意挪出五天的行程来马来西亚授课。
我觉得我们都是幸运的一群伙伴。
能够认识很低调的闰华姐。
她一向来不要名气、也不要排名、也不要派场。
是很扎实、很扎实的一名助人工作者。
(其实所有我们团队引进来的老师,同质性都很高。)
这两天,闰华姐倾囊相授,几乎想把内心拥有所有的法宝都给我们看个够。
2009 年认识闰华姐,作为她的实习生,
我知道我是幸运的。 而且非常幸运。
可以有一个督导几乎每个工作天都和你争辩、讨论、激荡,是真的无比幸运。
是我自己争取的,在每个工作天的傍晚,彼此都在疲惫不堪的状况,有至少一个小时的督导 session。是很累,不过却是我很珍贵的磨练修行,作为生命一个很重要的记号。
她从来不把我当成学生看待,就是把我当成一个成年人,
界限清楚、
她相信我们自己内心有资源、有能力,去面对所有在安宁病房所有的状况。
她不和我玩《拯救者 - 迫害者 - 受害者》游戏,我也不要玩。
我在她面前,我不需要掩饰脆弱、也不需要扮演聪明的人。
我在她面前,很多时候,都是那个无助的助人者、那个脆弱的助人者、那个找不到出路的助人者。那个充满困惑的助人者。
可是,就是展露了内心的阴暗面,我又觉得内心多了一分坚定。
走在黑暗的道路上,我知道我其实都没有死去。
依然有那么一分力气,要紧牙关,继续前进。
毕竟,作为一名医疗社工,谁没有伤痛的过去?谁没有艰难的未来?
当下,或许老早内心就做了决定:一定要把闰华姐带来马来西亚给同行们、学弟妹们认识。
自 2011 年,我用三年的时间,向闰华姐敲她的时间,前往吉隆坡上课。过程,不顺利。因为她对要走出海外提供训练,有心无力。 到最后一分钟,我们都要冒着随时取消活动的风险来承办。因为只要卫生局来找她开会,她就必须要搁着我们这个系列的活动。
今早,这个凌晨,心中满满的感恩。
我们终于完成了闰华第一趟来马的第一场演讲 + 第一场长达两天的工作坊。 或许流程不那么顺利、空调不那么冷爽、食物不那么足够;
不过,我看见了真诚。
我没有听见太多的 complain、我只看见满满的感恩及感动。
我感受到真诚的能量一直在团队流动中。
大家都很珍惜上课,没有太多次要的需求。
我很感动。
闰华姐的自我揭露的分享以及那自 high 傻大姐的性格,让我们很舒服,
营造了一个足够安全的环境,让我们可以很真诚的互动着。
孝恩团队见招拆招,牺牲自己的需求,去成全这个团队的运作。让大家上课之后,才继续用午餐。其实我一直很心疼我的伙伴们,觉得他们真的很为这个部门着想,很为学员们着想,而往往搁下了自己的需求。我们都会累的,所以我一直希望我们团队拿假。我们都会有自己的需求,所以我一直希望他们能够多一些表达。而我会继续为他们争取属于他们自己的福利。 其他部门队员的协助,sms 的问候,拍拍肩膀问我吃了没有。其实这些都是叫人心暖。这份真诚的工作态度,其实教我很感动。我忍不住和闰华姐说:“工作了这么多年,这趟的团队阵容,我真的很有福气。也很感恩。” 我们还有很多做的不够好,不过那份真诚,我相信大家都感受得到。
这趟 55 位学员们,真的不在话下。学员们的真诚分享、哭声、笑声、感恩、共鸣、感动、清明及疑惑的声音都可以在这个地方被听见、被听懂、被回应。
我觉得闰华姐最棒的地方是:你以为她什么都没有做,其实她就是在你以为什么都没有做的过程里,做了很多的演练、很多的示范、很多的实务经验分享。 因为她带领的演练、示范及分享,都让你觉得这只是一个邻家女孩说家事及别人家的事而已。这样的技巧训练,才是最上乘的境界。 我在背后看懂了许多之后,都一直忍不住转头把我所看懂的,告诉我们家的实习生。希望我看懂的,年轻仅 22 岁的学妹也可以抓到一些端倪。每一句话说出来的,都是一句又一句宝。我也在讲堂的背后,不断把文字打在我的手机里。实在大快人心!
因以这首歌作为背景,我的内心多了一些画面及隐喻:
我们新马专业同行的伙伴们就是一颗又一颗种子。
我觉得每一次不同的单位都很用心带好多很优秀的海外老师进来,
他们就是我们这些种子的养分。
有些是太阳,给我们光亮。
有些是月亮,给我们疗愈。
有些是星星,给我们宁静。
有些是水分,给我们滋润。
有些是肥料,给我们强大。
感恩啊,所有海外的老师,成就了我们本土一颗又一颗种子。
I say love it is a flower 我說,愛是朵花
And you, it's only seed 而你,是那種籽
祝愿马来西亚助人行业即将开出一朵又一朵璀璨的玫瑰。
甚至其他花种,百花齐放。
一朵又一朵,虽脆弱,且如此坚韧地开放着。
这画面,实在叫人真期待啊!
隔空一鞠躬,感谢各位。
今天早上十一点载闰华姐去机场,回台湾了。
祝福闰华姐、祝福孝恩团队、祝福学员们、
当然也祝福我自己。
以量
(摄于孝恩 Hall 4 周日。)
07 September 2015
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The Rose 玫瑰
歌詞 / 翻譯:
Some say love, it is a river 有人說,愛是河流
that drowns the tender reed 逕自淹沒柔弱蘆葦
Some say love, it is a razor 有人說,愛是利刃
that leaves your soul to bleed 任憑你靈魂淌血不顧
Some say love, it is a hunger an endless aching need 有人說,愛是帶痛的渴求,且永無止境
I say love it is a flower 我說,愛是朵花
And you, it's only seed 而你,是那種籽
It's the heart afraid of breaking that never learns to dance 心若害怕受傷 永難學會起舞
It's the dream afraid of waking that never takes the chance 夢若擔心清醒 一再錯過良機
It's the one who won't be taken who can not seem to give 不願吃虧的人 無法付出心意
And the soul afraid of dying that never learns to live 而一味憂心死亡的靈魂 不曾活過
When the night has been too lonely 當夜晚一如往常,寂寞不堪
And the road has been too long 而前路依然無盡漫長
And you think that love is only for the lucky and the strong 當你覺得 愛只屬於那些堅強幸運的人
Just remember in the winter 記得,寒冬裡
Far beneath the bitter snow lies the seed 嚴酷深雪底下,靜臥著種籽
That with the sun's love in the spring becomes the rose 一旦春陽暖照,它將化成一朵玫瑰