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If you learn to understand the pain of losing someone u love, this is exactly (if not more) how one would feel.
It's heartbreaking to see another fighter succumbed to cancer. RIP fighter ❤️💯🙏
#cancersucks
Yesterday morning, God took away my boyfriend, my best friend, my soul mate, my other half, my right hand, my rock. He took away his pain and his suffering and called him home to be with him. For everyone who knows Lucas, you’ll know he fought the toughest and longest battle with cancer, and never did I think I’d be here writing this today, none of us did. The cancer started in his leg a few years ago and after multiple surgeries it just kept coming back. He went to Germany to undergo specialised treatment that wasn’t available in Australia and unfortunately that didn’t work, which lead to the amputation of his right leg. We thought that was the hardest battle we would have to go through. With everything going on, he graduated from year 12 and sat his hsc. The amount of times I wanted to drop out of school because of how hard everything was getting, I didn’t. Because if he was going to stay in school and graduate after everything, what the hell was my excuse not to. Not long after the amputation, we got the news that he had a spot in his lung that started to grow. He then had a lung resection in December 2018 to remove the cancer that came back and once that had healed, he started learning to walk on his prosthetic leg. I had never had more of a proud girlfriend moment in my life. I went to every appointment with him from the first time he tried it on, to the last one where he was walking on the crutches off the bars with it. I shed a tear almost every single time because I knew everything hebhad been through was all worth it. We were so happy together, everyone that knows us knows there wasn’t a minute we were apart. We were so inlove, nothing was ever going to take that away from us. Then March 2019 came along. I woke up next to you, gave you a kiss and a cuddle and left for work at 5am and you were complaining about chest pains all day. As soon as I got back to yours after work, you asked me to drive you straight to the hospital. So you jumped in the car, and little did I know that was the last time we would ever have a drive together, the last time I would ever get to sleep with you, our lives changed. We took you into emergency, they did a scan and the nurse came back and told us you had a tumour in your spine. They needed to operate quick and fast to stop the tumour from growing, so they did just that. Unfortunately the tumour was growing so rapidly it ended up paralysing you from your chest down within a week. You then had 9 other growing tumours scattered in your body, we got told we only had 3-6 months left together, this was 4 weeks ago. You were in and out of hospital since April, not a day went by that you weren’t in pain but there was not a day that I left your side. I tried my best to do everything possible to make the suffering a little bit easier for you. On Friday, I got a call from your brother telling me to come to the hospital because your breathing was not very good, I came and we got told to start saying our goodbyes, I didn’t believe it. I did not believe we would only have days left together when we were supposed to have months, we were supposed to grow old together. I was not ready to say goodbye and I never will be. But yesterday, morning at 6:30am you kissed me and told me that you love me so much. At 7:30am I jumped up and looked at you and your chest wasn’t moving. I know it was you that woke me up. My heart fell out of my chest to the floor. I stared at you for 2 minutes waiting for you to breathe, waiting for you to squeeze my hand, waiting for any sign of life. I woke your uncle and mum up, you were gone. I held your lifeless body for 9 hours until they took you away yesterday afternoon. Baby I prayed since the day you got diagnosed for a miracle, no one in their right mind thought you were going to lose this battle. But I don’t think you lost, you fought for so god damn long, you fought so hard until your very last breath, you never once gave up. You didn’t lose, you won for you are at peace, you are finally resting with no more suffering. You are with God, where you wanted to be and I don’t doubt that he is taking good care of you. There is a reason he needs you up there more than we do down here, I don’t know what the reason is, but I know he’s got big things planned for you. You were taken from us way too soon, and oh my god do I wish I would have forever and a day with you. We had so many plans for the future, so so many but I promise you babe I’m going to make you proud. Lucas fell asleep for the last time with a smile on his face, I haven’t seen him so happy and so peaceful in so long. I find peace knowing he is at peace. He was and always will be the biggest blessing in my life. Luke you touched the lives of hundreds and hundreds of people. You are the definition of an inspiration. You had so many caring friends and such a beautiful family that I am so lucky to now be able to call mine aswell. You were loved by everyone, no one had a bad word to say about you. You fought like hell but I knew you were tired, I knew it was time for you to be in a better place, you were too good for this world. The pain, the hurt and the emptiness I’m feeling right now is indescribable but I know you’re up there guiding me through this, your strength is what gave me strength. I grew to love you more and more every single second of every day. You opened my eyes to life in a different perspective, you taught me so much. The love I had for you was something words can’t explain, something so indescribable that I honestly don’t want to feel with anyone else. You took the other half of my heart with you when you left me yesterday, and I’ll forever be grateful it is with you. I can’t tell you how beyond thankful and grateful I am that I got to love and experience you in every way, that I was the one you wanted to spend your whole life with, and that I was the one that you love. You gave me the most amazing, and unforgettable time together, I only wish we had longer. We have a million memories that I will cherish and that will stay in my heart for a life time. I told you you were a soldier and you said to me “a soldier can only fight for so long baby”. And you fought with everything that you have. Never in my life have I or will I meet such a strong hearted, caring person. You cared so much for others even at your worst times. I’ll never meet a soul as beautiful as yours. I love you with all of my heart and all of my soul, I will continue to love you each and every day. I will miss you so much, you brought the most amazing kind of happiness to my life. You did to everyone’s lives. Not having you around every day is going to be the biggest struggle, everything reminds me of you. But I know you’ll always be here in my heart. I can’t wait to see you again. You promised you’d get a double bed and save me a spot on my side for when I get up there. I hope you’re keeping it warm for me. Heaven needed an angel, and they got the most beautiful one of all. I have the biggest hole in my heart, but I know with your help you’ll get me through this.
Please I’m asking all of you not to take life for granted. Love your friends and family and love them as hard as you can, love them unconditionally because you have absolutely no idea when their last day will be.
Lucas Abraham Issa, I will hold you in my heart always, thankyou for everything you did for me and for everyone around you, you touched the lives of so many and you’ll never be forgotten, I promise you that. I love you, forever and always. I wish I could come visit you, but I know we’ll be together one day in a place that will last forever. Rest easy my beautiful boy ❤️
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