我是Hazel。在荃灣區長大，父母年少時從國內移居香港，他們讀書不多，在布廠工作。小時候我入讀天佑小學，對面龍華戲院是我第一次看電影的地方。當年家境欠佳，父母要外出工作，晚上大約十時才回家，因此我出生後是住在托兒中心，直到幾歲後，便將我交給褓母照顧。
我有兩個妹妹年紀比我小三年和十年，童年時與我較小三年的妹妹相依為命，父母要外出工作，沒有空閒時間照顧我們。我們到公園玩耍時，很容易與其他小朋友發生爭執和打架，因為我是大家姐，所以有責任保護兩個妹妹。雖然家庭生活環境並不理想，但鍛練出我的堅毅性格，跟現在我打搏擊比賽是很有關係，因為小時候有打架的經驗。
三年班時我們搬到青衣公共屋邨居住，我的成長階段都是圍繞着荃灣和青衣這兩個社區。中學考上Band 1的女子英文中學，天主教母佑會簫明中學，但中學還沒有完成我便要退學，當時因為很多布廠結業，爸爸亦被布廠辭退了，媽媽成為了家中的經濟支柱。雖然我的讀書成績很好，但已知道家中環境不好，自己是沒辦法繼續升學。那時自己的思想比較獨立，中三便決定輟學，出來社會工作維持家人生活。因為讀書不多，而且年紀小，所以沒有甚麽工作可選擇，只可以到髮型屋當洗頭工作。
因為身型長得較高，十幾歲便參加模特兒比賽，曾經獲得冠軍。但那時陷於兩難局面，因為手停便口停，不能每天等待模特兒的工作，最終選擇了髮型設計方向發展，覺得學懂一門手藝是不會餓死。十九歲的時候，我已經是一間著名髮廊的髮型師。當模特兒是小時候的夢想，到了二十五歲那年，生活穩定下來，才重拾夢想，返回模特兒行業。在當模特兒期間，很多朋友推薦我參加電影演員挑選，轉接間便進入了電影圈，自己亦從沒有想過會當上演員。
小時候家庭環境欠佳，很羨慕其他小朋友，可以有很多興趣學習或是有一個良好環境可以專心讀書。自己讀書成績頗佳，只是生活環境差，不能繼續學業。我並沒有後悔那麽年輕便要到社會工作，因為可以磨練到我有很強的鬥志，我的性格是不信命運，認為很多事情是掌握在自己的手中。雖然家庭環境差，不代表一定沒有出頭的日子，一直以來很堅持自己選擇的道路，雖然學歷比人差，但只要自己自強不息，仍可以有成功的機會。
父母退休後，我便成為家中的經濟支柱。我並不是沒有努力，讀書成績又不差，但覺得甚麽也比不上別人，因此有時會自我封閉，從前我會時常自怨自艾，甚至不與別人交談。當髮型師亦不是我的理想工作，但經過那幾年辛苦的日子，覺得自己亦有得着。
在擂臺上比賽，就好像是人生的縮影，當你佔上風的時候，並不是你最出色的時候，最重要是在下風的時候，還會有反擊的心態，覺得自己會勝出這場比賽，就像人生在逆境時，沒有人幫助那一刻，如果自己都認輸的話，那便是真的輸了。我最終能在G- 1比賽中獲勝，因為在逆境時心還想著，「我一定得」，只要有這一份意志，便沒有任何事情可以把你難倒，這一份打不死的精神，是我從小磨練出來的，對自己要有信心，不要向命運低頭。
能夠在娛樂圈發展，覺得很幸運，可以做到自己理想的工作，如每個人都能找到自己理想的工作，一定會幹得好，還可以發光發亮。
I am Hazel. I grew up in Tsuen Wan. My parents moved to Hong Kong from China when they were young. They were not well educated and worked in a fabric factory. When I was young, I attended Mary of Providence Primary School. Across the school, is Lung Wah Cinema. The first time I watched a movie was at that cinema. We came from a family that was not wealthy at the time and my parents had to go out to work. They will return home at around ten in the evening. That is why after I was born I stayed in a childcare. When I was a few years old, a babysitter took care of me.
I have two younger sisters who are three years and ten years younger than me. When I was young, the sister who was three years younger than me became my soul companion. My parents had to go out to work and did not have spare time to take care of us. When we went to the park to play, we easily ran into arguments and got into fights with the other children. As I was the oldest sister, I had the responsibility to protect my two younger sisters. Although our living environment was not ideal, it was able to train me into a tough person. It is very much related to my MMA right now because I had experience in fighting when I was small.
When I was in primary three, we moved to Tsing Yi Public Housing Estate. My childhood evolved around Tsuen Wan and Tsing Yi. In secondary school, I enrolled into a Band One English women’s secondary school. It was called Daughters of Mary Help of Christians Siu Ming Catholic Secondary School. But before I completed secondary school, I had to withdraw from the school. It was because a lot of fabric companies closed down. My father was fired by his company. My mother became the financial pillar of the family. Although my school grades were quite exceptional, I knew our family environment was not good. So there was no way for me to continue with school. At that time, my mentality was rather independent. In Form three, I quit school to work in the society in order to support my family. As I am not well educated and because of my tender age, there were not a lot of job options for me. I can only work at the hair salon to do hair washing.
As I have a considerably tall physique, I entered modeling competitions when I was in my teens. I once came in first place. But I came across two challenges at the time because whenever I did not work, I had no income. I cannot keep waiting for modeling jobs each day. Eventually, I became a hairdresser. I thought the ability to learn a set of skills will not starve me. When I was nineteen, I became a hairdresser at a well-known hair salon. Being a model was a dream of mine when I was young. When I was twenty five years old, my living environment became more stable. I then returned to my dream job: modeling. As I modeled, a lot of people recommended me to be a film actress. Serendipitously, I worked in show business. I never thought of becoming an actress.
As my financial situation was not ideal at home, I was envious of other children when I was young. They can participate in many extra-curricular activities and study in a healthy environment. My school grades were rather good. It was just my living environment that was rough so I could not continue with school. I never regretted working in the society at such a young age. It is because it can train me into a fighter. I do not believe in fate. It is because a lot of things are within our grasp. Even though my family situation was humbling, it did not mean there will not be a day when I can succeed. All along, I have been walking the path of my choice with persistence. In spite of the fact that I am less educated than others, it does not matter as long as you try your best. There is still a chance to succeed.
After my parents have retired, I became the financial pillar of my family. I have tried my best, too. My school grades were also not bad. But I feel I am always inferior compared to other people. That is why sometimes I will shut myself out. Back then I would always self-blame and suffer and may not even talk to others. When I was a hairdresser, I found it was not my ideal job. But after a few years of hard work, I thought I have gained somethings.
Competing at the MMA rink is a little like life. When you have the upper hand, it may not be you at your most pristine. The most important part is when you are at a bad situation, you should have a vengeful mentality. You must think you can win the competition. It is similar to life. When you are not doing well and nobody can help you, and if you admit defeat, then you have really lost. I eventually won the G-1 competition because I thought ‘I can do it' in my heart. If you have that kind of persistence, there is nothing you cannot do. That ‘cannot die’ mentality was cultivated since I was young. You need to have self-confidence and cannot bow your head to fate.
I feel I am very fortunate to work in show business. I can do something that I really love. If everyone can find something that they really want to do, they too can do well. They can bloom and radiate.
