As a mom, I’ve milestones that I aspire to witness for my kids. Things that @mysoncallsmebuun and I would occasionally bring up and be all excited about.
One of them would be sending Tyler for music and vocal classes when he turned 5, because this guy loves his songs and music! Well, the pandemic hit before he even turned 5, so that’s not happening just yet.
Another one would be witnessing Tyler’s 6 year old school concert and kindergarten graduation. I had always, always dreamed of the day my son would go on stage in his costume as a lead dancer or simply as a tree, and I would envision myself tearing up in the audience and feeling oh-so-proud. I was still clinging on to the hope to see him graduate kindy end of this year, but I guess the possibility of it is rather slim now. At least not one without masks on for all the kids 🥲
Another one? The day my kid goes for his first day of primary school, looking all grown up but still smol sized in his primary one uniform. I knew this sight would move me to tears. I am still hoping that this would be possible- stepping into primary one class, physically meeting new friends in a new classroom of a new school, bringing pocket money to buy food at the canteen and nonsense erasers and snacks at the mini store, coming home with stained uniform and telling me all about his adventures in school. I’m still looking forward to this day.
Lately I’ve also been wondering how Lu would be like if he were attending play school right now. Knowing what a fun and sociable person he is, he would really love play school and meeting new little friends. Would he be the rebel in class, doing his own thing and refusing to follow instructions? Or would he surprise us by being the teacher’s pet? We can only wonder for now.
If you’ve read this far, I’m gonna be honest and tell you that I’ve got nothing inspiring and uplifting to share for today. This is merely a raw and honest soul-baring confession of a pandemic mom, with what ifs for her kids clouding her mind every once in a while.
Until then, I’m just gonna do my best to nurture them at home, work hard to provide, and do my best to make home-schooling fun. Until then, I’ll keep trying.
