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''啊～怎麼又是一首悲傷的歌？''
因為我是個傷心女紙 QQ
（開玩笑的）
寫歌對我來說是一種治療負面情緒的方式。
周圍有很多人不喜歡自己有負面情緒，選擇去壓抑它們。不過我完全無法，我真的會爆炸。
分享個小故事；曾經在朝九晚五的工作上選擇去壓抑對經理的不滿。人家畢竟是經理嗎！做錯了事下面的人敢講出來還是吃虧啊（親身體驗呵呵）。當時壓力大到某一天全身長麻疹！超可怕！去檢查時說我不要那麼stress就會好。結果一辭職，就沒了～神不神奇，驚不驚喜！
我們永遠被慣俗需要擁有樂觀態度一切就會沒事的。我覺得是很toxic的BS。
對我而言，學會理解自己的負面情緒的複雜性並且接受自己會有這些情緒時，情況才會變得更好。
而且你們知道嗎，唱歌時我們會釋放內啡肽！（這個單詞我是有查一下的哦）
也就是所謂的快樂荷爾蒙！
飆高音的九九 > 大哭的九九要好 = 大家也好過一點 = happy九九
《靈魂》是我搬回加拿大時，感到憤怒和絕望時寫的。 寫作過程真的幫助我了許多，讓我去消化當初的無奈感。不然我可能會選擇喝一大堆酒或抽菸之類的，誰知道啊！至少寫歌是個健康的出氣筒哈哈哈
其實不是不會寫開心的歌，只是現在的我需要的就是把創作當作治療的方式，所以寫出來的大部分也就是這些啦。真心謝謝大家願意聽我的日記！
📸 @melodysuyama 👕 @wig_bywin
'Why do you keep writing sad songs?'
Because I’m a sadgirl :(
All kidding aside, songwriting has been my way of dealing with life. I feel things intensely, so I can’t bottle it up, repress it, and go on with my day.
(Or I can repress them, and get hives breakouts all over. True story from my previous 9-5 job with PainInTheAss Manager. Spoiler alert; I quit & my skin immediately went back to normal.)
I know society often tells us that being positive will make things better. That’s such BS and so toxic lol.
Things get better for me when I learn to understand the complexity of my negative emotions AND when I’m finally ok with the fact that I have these emotions.
Did you know that singing releases endorphins? AKA happy hormones! Me belting is better than me crying = better 4 u = fun 4 me
Soul was written when I was feeling angry and hopeless when I first moved back home. The writing process helped me cope so much. Other alternatives probably would’ve been drinking and smoking, who knows. #sinner
Not that I can’t write happy songs, but as of now, I need songwriting to help me through stuff. So thanks for listening to my diary.
