「地獄空」攝影集即將在八月中元節前出版,由知名設計師與攝影家黃子欽設計,內附在下二位高徒精美繪製符咒、心經版畫書籤、愣嚴咒牌、尊勝咒語...等,感恩十方大德助印,希望疫情退散,平安喜樂,後記如下:
野放台灣五十餘年,貪狼獨坐,三方四正殺破狼格局,少年多舛,白手起家,隨展覽雲遊四海,如閒雲野鶴常持各類底片機流連廢墟、山川、宮廟忘返,遂設幻影堂自詡堂主,一日三省「凡所有相皆是虛妄」,常宅於暗房沖片放大通宵、鍾情黑白世界之單純,彩色照片俗世繽紛花俏做作甜美甚至比現實更現實故少拍也。知天命之年有餘,了悟人生一瞬、眨眼即逝,雖非仙人,亦無道骨,初聞離垢地生清淨心,但離華嚴「不動地」尚遠,待修持也。
2017年盛暑拍畢《巨神連線》,心律不整差點心肌梗塞向閻羅王報到,意識死神隨伺在側,人生苦短,如何了生脫死、盡斷煩惱、無所罣礙、遠離顛倒……總不得解,蒙釋迦摩尼佛開示飆淚三晝夜,聞佛法數載始知自我渺如塵埃,甚感慚愧。閒暇乃參訪名寺古剎,禮敬焚香佛陀菩薩羅漢諸神天仙王爺媽娘,台灣宮廟千奇百怪、宗派錯綜複雜(佛教、道教、一貫道、天主教、基督教、齋教、回教&大同教、儒教鑾堂、天帝教&天德教、慈惠堂&勝安宮、軒轅教、道院、理教、萬國道德會、會靈山……)、神棍橫行(依人不依法、偶像崇拜、斂財、邪淫),因歷史變遷、社會動盪、政治鬥爭、意識形態等因素導致佛道混雜,但地獄造景稀少,後專注拍攝各殿閻王、判官、陰司、獄卒、七爺、八爺乃至一切罪人,各寺造景巧妙、耐人尋味,意境乖張溢於言表,造型扭曲非常人所能塑也,然匠心獨運、自成一格,專研西方藝術數十載方知真誠樸拙最美,絲毫不輸喬托(Giotto di Bondone,1267~1337)乃至米開朗基羅(Michelangelo Di lodovico Buonarroti Simoni 1475 ~ 1564)矣。
創立於1986年的石門金剛宮風景優美可眺望北濱,雖主祀四面佛,儒釋道眾神尊也不含糊,可過七星橋解厄、繞行五百黝黑羅漢敲鑼印心、跪拜亞洲最大臥佛涅槃像,安太歲自不在話下,甲子太歲爺雙眼長出手掌印象甚深,1994年經閻羅王指示廟公建造一條肚內設極樂世界及陰曹地府之神龍,行走暗黑通道觸動感應機關,只見面容猙獰受刑者呼天搶地喊冤、身邊盡是血肉糢糊殘肢敗屍腦漿塗地,十殿閻羅各司其職、威儀攝人。新北市林口區青嶺湖北文紫祥宮包公廟則以壁面彩塑地獄浮雕獨步全台,粉嫩色彩搭配卡漫風格,尤為造型簡直恐怖到可愛透頂,該廟主祀森羅殿閻羅天子包拯(包青天),陽世冤屈者可至此參拜祭解,求破懸案者眾,逢中元普渡皆以紙紮船渡亡魂至彼岸,全台唯一閻羅天子巨像籌備中,四周環繞墓地,適合修不淨觀也。台灣首尊彰化八卦山大佛旁南天宮(1971)地府則是首座電動地府,規模精小但驚嚇度破表,略顯破敗但五光十色仍蠻凶悍,出自已故台南大道長金登富之作,而電動神明起始可追溯至1960年代北港朝天宮。倒是嘉義水上鄉白人牙膏觀光工廠「戴相府」、「將軍府」設置十殿地府出乎意料之外,乾淨亮麗、ㄧ殿ㄧ間、簡單樸實。由高雄蓮潭龍虎塔龍口入內可見全臺唯一交趾陶地獄牆面,尊尊栩栩如生,續入龍身乃進聞聲救苦白衣觀音大士三十三化身浮雕隧道,造型設色甚為古錐。高雄大岡山超峰寺入口處「西方三聖蓮池海會」(阿彌陀佛、觀世音菩薩、大勢至菩薩巨像)旁設靜態十殿閻羅(1970年代初),雖略為陳舊然韻味猶存,續往上行可抵「證菩提道-釋迦如來應化事迹」雕塑園區,一攬世尊畢生精華。如來年邁時,琉璃國王為報長期被釋迦族輕蔑之傲慢心,世尊雖三次單獨伽跌坐 阻擋大軍進攻之路,但因緣果報無法逆轉,昔日婢女所生王子瞋恨無以復加,還是滅了祖國。自持神通第一目犍連不忍無辜百姓慘遭屠殺,遂以缽盛救度五百族人,最終卻化為血水,佛言神通廣大仍不敵千百劫業力,因緣果報屢試不爽。其母死後墜入餓鬼道飢餓難耐,目犍連遂展神通救渡,但所食尚未入口皆化為赤火,佛陀囑咐農曆七月十五日僧眾解安居自恣日,於盆中設甘露美食供養十方僧眾,因此超度亡母。後世「盂蘭盆法會」乃至「水懺法會」、「瑜珈焰口法會 」皆為消業障、斷塵垢之超渡儀軌,既渡亡魂也自懺悔。
台南麻豆代天府規模宏大、造型豔麗,不但可遊十八層地獄尚可逛天堂(1979年興建,1983年開放),燈光絢爛、聲響駭人,獨自漫步宛如觀落陰、地獄走一回。先過「心頭山」、入「清心池」、進「陰陽界」、抵「交簿廳」、達「鬼門關」、遊「補經所」、探「枉死城」、行「奈何橋」,至ㄧ殿泰廣王照「孽鏡台」現造惡原形,睹抱柱、火床等小地獄。二殿楚江王開「陰查簿 」判案定奪,觀糞尿泥、餓鬼、舞池、寒冰、膿血、鞭韃、舌犁、劍葉、戟腹拋接、砧截……等小地獄。三殿宋帝王刑罰為倒吊、銅鐵刮臉、挖眼、搗樁、倒烤、吸血、穿肋、抽筋、蛆蛀等小地獄……兼遊「四生(胎、卵、濕、化)回魂府」。四殿五官王掌管腰斬、拔舌、沸湯、刺嘴、剝皮、箭樹、車崩、射眼……等十六小地獄。隨五殿森羅王豋「望鄉臺」回眸親人最終眼後觀擊膝、誅心、刀山、飛刀火石……小地獄。六殿卞城王別稱「大叫喚大地獄」,轄火牛、虎啖、噬腎、鉗嘴含鍼、釘喉、磨摧、砍頭……等小地獄。七殿泰山王為「熱惱大地獄」,窺烙手指、抽腸、頂石蹲身、油釜滾烹、割舌穿腮……等十六小地獄。八殿都市王掌管「大熱惱大地獄」兼火狗、鐵汁、鐵蛇、鋸劈斷肢、釘板、灸脊、鐵丸、磅秤……等小地獄。九殿平等王直轄十八層「阿鼻大地獄」,直透地心、內中陰森、不見五指、滿溢地漿,皆為極犯,另轄紫赤毒蛇鑽孔、夾頂、鐵鴉、針雨、蜂蠍……等小地獄。至十殿輪轉王上「觀生臺」、「轉劫所八司」(查驗司 、稽善司 、考過司 、恩怨司 、壽命司 、支配司、掌劫司 、授生司)後至「孟婆亭」飲「醧忘湯」忘盡前塵往事,依前世功德過金、銀、玉、石、木、竹六種橋樑至「轉輪臺(紫河車)」入六道輪迴轉生投胎。據《十八泥犁經》記載,人過世後七七四十九天為「中陰生」,經閻羅王審判善惡業力判定去留或懲罰百千萬劫,犯五逆重罪則墮入「無間地獄(阿鼻地獄)」永劫不復。地藏王乃幽冥教主,統轄十殿閻羅,逢三曹普渡便在各殿設「講道所」超度尚存善根之鬼魂。
人類居於五趣(阿修羅、人、傍生、餓鬼、地獄)雜居地五濁惡世之堪忍世界,犯十惡業(殺生、偷盜、邪淫、妄語、兩舌、惡口、綺語、貪慾、嗔恚、愚痴)者必墮三趣惡道。如何出「三界」(欲界、色界、無色界)二十八天?凡人無此意識,別說能破「十二因緣」(無明、行、識、名色、六入、觸、受、愛、取、有、生、老死)還滅門,更別想斷除「四聖諦」(苦、集、滅、道)集地八十一品見惑與八十八使思惑(五利使-身見、邊見、邪見、見取見、戒禁取見、五鈍使-貪、瞋、癡、慢、疑),了悟「五蘊」(色、受、想、行、識)本空、「十二入」(眼、耳、鼻、舌、意、色、聲、香、味、觸、法)空、「十八界」空,破俱生我執與分別我執、法執甚至空執,生十一處「善心所」(信、精進、慚、愧、無貪、無瞋、無痴、輕安、不放逸、行捨、不害),降二十六處「惡心所」(貪、瞋、癡、慢、疑、惡見、忿、恨、覆、惱、嫉、慳、誑、諂、害、憍、無慚、無愧、掉舉、惛沉、不信、懈怠、放逸、失念、散亂、不正知),須知善根斷盡則陷永劫輪迴、無垠轉世之苦。
地獄可能空滅嗎?若地獄空乏人間多鬼怪,地獄淨空世間何嘗非淨土?若能證空性何處現地獄?
地獄曠古來便廣泛流傳各部族間,老死生滅為自然運行之基礎、宇宙意識之核心,然今文明昌盛如咱城邦並非慾望消弭之所,惡性所及實無可根除,礙於憲法國家法律社會軍隊企業公司學校家庭團體之層層束縛不亞於十八層,乃遁於壓抑、束己情懷,暗埋心底、日久貪嗔痴慢疑怨噌會疊穢。而六塵未熄,心多妄念,妖魔鬼怪魑魅魍魎孤魂閃靈出沒於荒郊乃至人間,會靈於曠野密林以增性靈乃出世高人修煉之舉,我等凡人擅闖宛如迪士尼般之人造地獄,三魂七魄尚不足以出竅,驚邪恐怖淒厲猙獰倒滿足了自以為是的慚愧,豈不謬哉?
病毒肆虐年半有餘,全球確診者逼近一億八千萬,枉死者近四百萬,堪比戰爭規模,望眾生發慈悲心、令往生者安息、善待其他物種、平等有情眾生。地獄本空,唯妄念生起一切羨慕嫉妒恨而地獄現前。盡以此書作為世界新冷戰獨裁者、超限戰者、暗網駭客、陰險狡猾冷嘲熱諷落井下石者之良知備忘錄矣。
姚瑞中寫於2021年端午節
Postscript
I have been living recklessly in Taiwan for more than fifty years. According to Zi Wei Dou Shu (Purple Star Astrology), Tan Lang is the sole star in my house of Self. This star, which represents xxx, forms an equilateral triangle with that star Qi Sha and Po Jun on the square chart and constitutes a Sha Po Lang pattern. The pattern indicates a kind of turbulence and change, a life of wandering with ups and downs and it tells a lot about my life. After my ill-fated youth, I started from scratch and traveled around the world with exhibitions that I participated. Like a flaneur, I wandered around ruins, nature, and temples with every type of film camera obliviously. Thus, I founded the Hall of Illusion and claimed to be the master of the hall. Several times a day, I pondered a quote from the Diamond Sutra, “Everything with form is unreal.” In addition, I usually stayed in the darkroom developing film and enlarging those negatives overnight. However, I treasured the simplicity of the black and white world. The earthly, gaudy, garish, phony and pleasing qualities within colored photos make the images even more realistic than the real world. It is not my cup of tea, so I seldom took colored photos. In Confucian thought, the age of fifty marks the stage knowing the mandate of Heaven. I am now at my fifties and realize how ephemeral human life is. However, I am not an immortal, nor having sagelike characteristics. I just learned that the stage of stainless (the second bhūmi) and develop a pure mind that is free from doubt and defilement. However, I’m still far from the immovable state and need to practice.
In the summer of 2017, after filming the work Incarnation, I experienced a severe heart rhythm problem which almost triggered myocardial infarction and could have killed me. Consequently, I realized that death was waiting for me and the life is too short to figure out how I can liberate myself from the cycle of Birth and Death. I couldn’t comprehend how to be free from all afflictions and worries and how to avoid delusive ideas. I wept for three days and nights after being enlightened by Shakyamuni Buddha. Up to the moment, I felt ashamed that I failed to realize that the self is as insignificant as dust after these years learning and practicing Buddhism. Since then, I have visited famous temples and monasteries in my spare time, worshiping Buddha, Bodhisattvas, arhats, and all the deities and immortals. Taiwan’s temples are myriad with a enormous number of sects, including Buddhism, Taoism, Yiguandao, Catholicism, Christianity, Chinese religions of fasting, Islam& Baháʼí Faith, Confucianism, Tiandiism& Tian-De Teachings, Xiwangmu cult, Yellow Emperor Sect, Precosmic Salvationism, Liism, World Wide Ethical Society, séance cult, etc. Some people even claim that they can mediate communication between the deities or spirits of the dead with human beings, having their believer rely on themselves instead of the orthodox dharma or dogma and pay excessive respect and admiration for the mediums or objects, accumulating wealth through such an unfair means or even harassing their believer sexually. Due to Taiwan’s historical changes, social turbulence, political struggles, and ideological issues, Buddhism and Taoism are somehow mixed. However, there are few emphases on the concept of the hell. As I took photographs of Yama of each court, judges, wardens of the underworld, jailers, General Fan and Hsieh (the ghost escorts) and all sinners, I found few temples cleverly created hellish scenes that are intriguing, exaggerating, and extraordinary. However, the creations are unparalleled unique. I have been studying Western arts for decades and then I came to realize that simplicity makes the most beautiful works of art. These hellish scenes can even compete with works of Giotto di Bondone (1267-1337) and Michelangelo Di lodovico Buonarroti Simoni (1475-1564).
Jingang Temple Shimen District, founded in 1986, overlooks the beautiful North shore. Although the temple is mainly dedicated to Phra Phrom (the Thai representation of Mahabrahma), spirits of Confucianism, Buddhism, and Taoism can also be founded in the temple. The worshipper can go cross the Seven Star bridge to relieve bad luck, walk along the five hundred arhat statues and knock on the gong to affirm one’s Buddha nature. Furthermore, the worshipper can also prostrate themself before Asia’s largest statue of Buddha in Nirvana (the Reclining Buddha statue) and pacify the Taoist Tai Sui deity of the year. I was impressed by the Jia-Zi Tai Sui General that a pair of palms grow out of his eyes. In 1994, the biō-kong (the person taking charge of the temporal affairs of a temple) received a divine inspiration from Yama (the King of Hell) that he had to build a sacred hall in the shape of a divine dragon, with the interior designed according to the World of Ultimate Bliss and the Underworld. When the visitor walks in the dark hallway, they will see the tortured people (dioramas, of course) scrunching their faces and crying bitterly and loudly in excessive grief as the visitor triggers the mechanism. One will even find them in the midst of flesh, body liquid and blood, mutilated limbs, and rotten corpses. While each of the ten Yamas are focusing on their own duties, showing their sacred dignity that collect visitors’ attention. The Baogong Temple in Linkou District, New Taipei City exclusively features colorful depiction of hellish scenes in relief in Taiwan. With its pastel shades and cartoon-like style, the relief is both grotesque and adorable at the same time. This temple is dedicated to Bao Zhen (also known as Justice Bao) representing the incarnation of Yama. Living people who have been treated unjustly can come worshipping Bao Gong and receive exorcism. Therefore, many people come here for seeking to solve unsolved cases. In Zhongyuan Festival (the ghost festival), the temple will burn the Zhizha (paper craft) boat to ferry the ghosts to the other shore, which is the shore of enlightenment. The only giant statue of Yama in Taiwan is still in the making. The temple is surrounded by a cemetery, suitable for meditating on the loathsomeness and impurity. Nantian Temple (1971), located next to the Eight Trigram Mountains Buddha in Changhua, features the first animatronic underworld. Despite the small size, the animatronic underworld is intensely shocking. Though it’s slightly worn, the colorful dioramas are still brutally ferocious. The creator was the late venerable Dao Zhang (Taoist priest) Jing Deng-fu while the origin of animatronic deities can be traced back to the 1960s Beigang Chaotian Temple. On the contrary, the Whiteman Toothpaste Tourism Factory in Shuishang Township, Chiayi, features ten Yamas with individual booth. The place is unexpectedly clean and polished yet keeps a simple and modest tone. Then, the Dragon Pagoda of the Dragon and Tiger Pagodas at Lotus Lake in Zuoying, Kaohsiung, holds the only relief of hellish scenes made of Kochin ceramic. All the figures are vivid and life-like. If one goes further into the pagoda, they will see a relief tunnel of the thirty-three incarnations of the white-robed form of Guanyin (Avalokiteśvara) on a white lotus, with a lovely and interesting design. Another Hall of Yama is built in the 1970s next to the entrance of Dagangshan Chaofeng Temple, located in the Alian District of Kaohsiung. Visitors will also see three statues of the Three Holy Ones of the Western Pureland (Amitābha, Avalokiteśvara, Mahāsthāmaprāpta) which assemble at a lotus pond. Although the hellish scene looks somewhat antiquated, you may still find its previous charm. If one goes further, they will reach the sculptural garden of “Attaining the Bodhi Way: the Incarnation of Sakyamuni Buddha,” where the visitor can see the essence of Bhagavato’s (meaning the Blessed one, one of the common epithets for Buddha) life. When Tathāgata (another epithet for Buddha) was old, the king of Kosala wanted to avenge the arrogance of the tribe of Shakyas who had long despised him, regarding him as a son of a maiden. Although Buddha has sat in lotus position alone three times to stop the army from attacking his tribe. However, one can never reverse the cause and following karma. The prince born of a maiden was so furious that he eventually destroyed his homeland. Maudgalyāyana (one of the Buddha’s closest disciples), who is said to have had supernatural abilities that surpassed the other disciples, could not bear to see the slaughter of innocent people. Thus, he saved five hundred people of his tribe with a pātra (an eating utensil of Buddhist monks). Unfortunately, everything he did was in vain, those who were saved eventually turned into a puddle of blood. The Buddha said that the supernatural abilities cannot surpass the power of karma. The cause and effect work all the time. When Maudgalyāyana’s mother fell into the path of hungry ghost, he used his supernatural abilities to save his mother from hunger. However, all the food turned into fire before being fed to his mother. Later, the Buddha commanded the monks to put nectar and dishes in a basin on the 15th day of the seventh month in the lunar calendar for the monks from all directions to free his mother from reincarnation. In later times, the Ullambana Dharma Service, the Compassionate Samadhi Water Repentance, and the Yoga Collection for Feeding the Searing Mouths Dharma Service are rituals to eliminate karmic hindrance and to cease to worldly delusions. Through such practices, one can free the dead as well as confess their repentance.
Madou Daitian Temple is a magnificent and colorful temple in Tainan. Not only can the worshippers visit the eighteen levels of Hell but also the Heaven (it was built in 1979 and inaugurated in 1983) here. The lighting and sound effects are stunning and frightening. When walking alone in the space, one may feel like taking a Guan Luo Yin trip (a Taoist necromancy which leads people’s spirits to hell and communicate with the dead ones) to visit the underworld prison. Before arriving the first court of the underworld, the visitor will walk through the Mountain of Heart Summit, the Pure Heart Pond, the Frontier between the Living and the Dead Realms, the Soul Registry Hall, the Portico of Demons, the Center for Complementary Teaching of Canonical Books, the Citadel of Premature Death, and the Bridge of Vanity. When one arrives at the first court, they will see King Chin-guang, who is in charge of the court, using the Mirror of Retribution to show the earthly form of evil creatures and also witness the sub-hell of Pillar-Holding and Fire Bed, etc. At the second court, King Chu-jiang collates the register of sins the souls of the dead have committed to impose the punishments. Here, you will see the sub-hell of Excrement and Urine, Hungry Ghost, Burning Dance Floor, Ice, Pus and Blood, Whipping, Tongue-Raking, Sword Blade, Stomach-Piercing, Chopping, etc. Next, the dead at the third court, ruled by King Song-di, will receive the punishments including inversion tortures, face-skinning with steel and copper knife, eye-wrenching, pounding, blood-sucking, rib-piercing, roasting, tendon-taking, being eaten by maggots. The visitor can pay a visit to the Palace of Soul-Resuscitation for the Four Forms of Creatures (birth from an egg, birth from a womb, birth from moisture, and birth by transformation). King Wu-guan is in charge of the fourth court. There are sixteen sub-hells at the fourth court including Waist Chop, Tongue Removal, Boiling Pond, Mouth-stabbing, Skin-peeling, Sword Tree, Burning Wheels and Cart, Eye-shooting, etc. Next, at the fifth court, sinful souls are allowed to ascend the Tower of Hometown-Viewing to take a final look of their family. The visitor will witness sub-hells of Knee-striking, Heart-slicing, Blade Mountain, Flying Swords and Burning Stones, etc. The King of Bian City takes charge of the sixth court, which is also known as the “Great Hell of Screaming,” with sub-hells including Fire Cattle, Tiger-Biting, Kidney-Eating, Mouth-Poking, Throat-Nailing, Iron Mill, Decapitation, etc. The King of Tai-shan is in charge of the seventh court, the “Great Hell of Heat and Fire.” The sixteen sub-hells at this court include Finger-Searing, Bowel-Hauling, Stone-Bearing, Boiling Oil, Tongue-Removal and Cheek-Piercing, etc. Next, the King Du-shi is in charge of the eighth court, the “Great Hell of Intense Fire and Heat,” and the sub-hells including Fire Dogs, Molten Iron, Iron Snakes, Dismemberment, Steel Spikes, Burning-Marrow, Iron Ball, Scale, etc. The ninth court is ruled by the King Ping-deng. It is known as the biggest court, Avici Hell (the Hell of Incessant Suffering), which if the lowest level of the hell realm and the interior is gloomily and terrifyingly dark. Those who committed the most serious evil deed will be sent to the Avici Hell. Sub-hells such as Poisonous Snake, Brain-Removal, Crow-Gnawing, Raining Needles, Wasps and Scorpions are included at this court. After arriving the tenth court, ruled by the Great King of the Reincarnation Palace, one can visit the “Observatory of Life on earth” and the “eight bureaus of the Reincarnation Palace” (including the Bureau of Judicial Control, the Bureau of Good-Actions, the Bureau of Bad-Actions, the Bureau of Debts, Gratitude, and Vengeance, the Bureau of Longevity and Destiny, the Bureau of Familial Ties, the Bureau of the Reincarnated, and the Bureau of Birth). The sinful one will be sent to the Pavilion of Mengpo and made to drink the Soup of Forgetfulness to forget all past affairs. According to the sinful one’s merits of previous life, they will go across one of the six bridges (gold, silver, jade, stone, wood, bamboo) to the “Reincarnation-Wheel (Wheel on the Crimson River).” Finally, one is able to reborn in the six realms. According to the Aṣṭadaśa nāraka sutra ( the Eighteen Hells Sutra), after one passes away, they will enter an intermediate and transitional state between death and rebirth, known as antarābhava in Sanskrit, for forty-nine days. The being will be evaluated by Yama, who will decide if one should get reborn or get punished at the hell. Those who committed the Five Grave Offenses (killing one’s father, killing one’s mother, killing an Arhat, shedding the blood of a Buddha, and creating a schism within the community of Buddhist monks and nun who practice for attaining enlightenment.) will be sent to the Avici Hell and stay there eternally. Kṣitigarbha is the Lord of the Nether World, ruling the ten court of Hell. The lord will set up the “Hall of Teaching” at each court to salvage those sinful ones who still obtain few merits at the offering rituals.
Human beings live the Sahā world (sahāloka in Sanskrit, meaning “endurance of suffering,” a concept of mundane world in Mahāyāna Buddhism) where they share with other reincarnations (including beings of the hells, of the preta, and of malevolent nature spirits) with five turbidities (the Kalpa turbidity, the view turbidity, the affliction turbidity, the living beings turbidity, and the life turbidity). Those who commit the ten evil deeds (killing, stealing, adultery, lying, using immoral language, slandering, equivocating, coveting, anger, and false views) must fall into the three evil paths (animals, preta, and hell). However, how can one escape from the three realms/ twenty-eight heavens (including the six heavens of the desire realm, the eighteen heavens of the form realm, and the four heavens of the formless realm)? Worldly people who don’t have such an awareness cannot leave the cycle of the twelve nidanas (meaning causes or motivations), let alone eliminate the eighty-one afflictions (that have been produced due to misunderstanding regarding reality) and the eighty-eight illusions (including five afflictions of advanced practitioners, also known as five views: view of self, extreme view, evil view, view of attachment to views, and view of morality; and five unintelligent temptations: desire, anger, stupidity, arrogance, and doubt) of thought within the three realms and four Arya satyas (noble truths, including suffering, arising, ending, and path). They cannot realize that the essence of the five skandhas (referring to aggregates of clinging, including the matter of form, sensation, recognition, mental formation, and consciousness) , the twelve ayatana (meaning sense base, including six internal bases: eye, ear, nose, tongue, body, and mind and six external bases: visible objects, sound, odor, taste, touch, and mental objects), and the eighteen dhātavah (meaning compositional elements of human existence, including six consciousness, six faculties, and their objects) are the emptiness and the void. Furthermore, they cannot dispel the two reasons for clinging to the idea of the self and the attachment to elemental constructs and even believe in the two (false) tenets that that karma and nirvana are not real and that the ego and phenomena are real. As a consequence, they fail to develop the eleven wholesome mental factors (faith, energy, conscience, being ashamed, non-attachment, non-aggression, non-delusion, calmness, equanimity, conscientiousness, and non-injuriousness) and cease the sixteen unwholesome mental factors (desire, greed, anger, delusion, arrogance, doubt, wrong view, wrath, enmity, hypocrisy, vexation, jealousy, parsimony, deceit, flattery, harming, ambitiousness, stupidity, lacking of faith, idleness, being unrestrained, forgetting, distraction, non-discernment, ). One must bear in mind that once all our virtuous roots are discontinued, they will be trapped in the never-ending reincarnation and the suffering of infinite continuity.
Is it possible that the hell will be empty one day? If the beings in hell will become extinct while evil spirits inhabit the mundane world, the world could be considered as a pure land. If we could witness the nature of the void, then hell will exist no more.
Since ancient times, the concept of hell has been widely spread among all tribes. Aging, death, beginning, and end are the basis of nature and the core of cosmic consciousness. However, the prosperous civilization as our island is not a place where desire can be eliminated. It’s impossible to eradicate evil nature. Since fetters brought by the constitution, the state, the law, society, the military, corporations, schools, families, and groups are not less than the eighteen levels of hell, the mortals repress themselves, bury their feelings. Day after day, greed, anger, stupidity, arrogance, doubt, and resentment are stacking. However, since the six dust (visible objects, sound, odor, taste, touch, and mental objects) has not yet been extinguished, people in the mundane world are still full of delusions. The demons, devils, evil spirits, and the wondering dead exist in the wilderness, while only advanced practitioners with transcendent would attempt to make contact with the dead in the wasteland and forest. Worldly people like us trespass in Disneyland-like man-made hell. It is absurd and ridiculous that the hellish scenes cannot stop us from perpetrating evil deeds, but the horrific and cruel scenes yet satisfy our self-righteous shame.
The pandemic has been boiling over for more than a year and a half. The number of infected patients worldwide is nearly a hundred and eighty million, and the death toll has risen to four million, which is equivalent to a war crisis. I hope that we can all be compassionate, give peace to the dead, treat all sentient beings well and equally. The hell is innately empty; however, deluded and misleading thoughts would give rise to all jealousy and hatred and then manifest the hell before us. This book merely serves as a memorandum of conscience for dictators of the world’s new cold war, supporters of unrestrained warfare, dark web hackers, and those who are cunning and contemptuous and maltreat others when knowing they have problems.
June 2021,
Yao Jui-chung
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野放台灣五十餘年,貪狼獨坐,三方四正殺破狼格局,少年多舛,白手起家,隨展覽雲遊四海,如閒雲野鶴常持各類底片機流連廢墟、山川、宮廟忘返,遂設幻影堂自詡堂主,一日三省「凡所有相皆是虛妄」,常宅於暗房沖片放大通宵、鐘情黑白世界之單純,彩色照片俗世繽紛花俏做作甜美甚至比現實更現實故少拍也。知天命之年有餘,了悟人生一瞬、眨眼即逝,雖非仙人,亦無道骨,初聞離垢地生清淨心,但離華嚴「不動地」尚遠,待修持也。
2017年盛暑拍畢「巨神連線」,心律不整差點心肌梗塞向閻羅王報到,意識死神隨伺在側,人生苦短,如何了生脫死、盡斷煩惱、無所罣礙、遠離顛倒…總不得解,蒙釋迦摩尼佛開示飆淚三晝夜,聞佛法數載始知自我渺如塵埃,甚感慚愧。閒暇乃參訪名寺古剎,禮敬焚香佛陀菩薩羅漢諸神天仙王爺媽娘,台灣宮廟千奇百怪、宗派錯綜複雜(佛教、道教、一貫道、天主教、基督教、齋教、回教&大同教、儒教鸞堂、天帝教&天德教、慈惠堂&勝安宮、軒轅教、道院、理教、萬國道德會、會靈山…)、神棍橫行(依人不依法、偶像崇拜、斂財、邪淫),因歷史變遷、社會動盪、政治鬥爭、意識形態等因素導致佛道混雜,但地獄造景稀少,後專注拍攝各殿閻王、判官、陰司、獄卒、七爺、八爺乃至一切罪人,各寺造景巧妙、耐人尋味,意境乖張溢於言表,造型扭曲非常人所能塑也,然匠心獨運、自成一格,專研西方藝術數十載方知真誠樸拙最美,絲毫不輸喬托(Giotto di Bondone,1267~1337)乃至米開郎基羅(Michelangelo Di lodovico Buonarroti Simoni 1475 ~ 1564)矣。
創立於1986年的石門金剛宮風景優美可眺望北濱,雖主祀四面佛,儒釋道眾神尊也不含糊,可過七星橋解厄、繞行五百黝黑羅漢敲鑼印心、跪拜亞洲最大臥佛涅槃像,安太歲自不在話下,甲子太歲爺雙眼長出手掌印象甚深,1994年經閻羅王指示廟公建造一條肚內設極樂世界及陰曹地府之神龍,行走暗黑通道觸動感應機關,只見面容猙獰受刑者呼天搶地喊冤、身邊盡是血肉糢糊殘肢敗屍腦漿塗地,十殿閻羅各司其職、威儀攝人。新北市林口區青嶺湖北文紫祥宮包公廟則以壁面彩塑地獄浮雕獨步全台,粉嫩色彩搭配卡漫風格,尤為造型簡直恐怖到可愛透頂,該廟主祀森羅殿閻羅天子包拯(包青天),陽世冤屈者可至此參拜祭解,求破懸案者眾,逢中元普渡皆以紙紮船渡亡魂至彼岸,全台唯一閻羅天子巨像籌備中,四周環繞墓地,適合修不淨觀也。台灣首尊彰化八卦山大佛旁南天宮(1971)地府則是首座電動地府,規模精小但驚嚇度破表,略顯破敗但五光十色仍蠻凶悍,出自已故台南大道長金登富之作,而電動神明起始可追溯至1960年代北港朝天宮。倒是嘉義水上鄉白人牙膏觀光工廠「戴相府」、「將軍府」設置十殿地府出乎意料之外,乾淨亮麗、ㄧ殿ㄧ間、簡單樸實。由高雄蓮潭龍虎塔龍口入內可見全臺唯一交趾陶地獄牆面,尊尊栩栩如生,續入龍身乃進聞聲救苦白衣觀音大士三十三化身浮雕隧道,造型設色甚為古錐。高雄大岡山超峰寺入口處「西方三聖蓮池海會」(阿彌陀佛、觀世音菩薩、大勢至菩薩巨像)旁設靜態十殿閻羅(1970年代初),雖略為陳舊然韻味猶存,續往上行可抵「證菩提道-釋迦如來應化事迹」雕塑園區,一攬世尊畢生精華。如來年邁時,琉璃國王為報長期被釋迦族輕蔑之傲慢心,世尊雖三次單獨伽跌坐阻擋大軍進攻之路,但因緣果報無法逆轉,昔日婢女所生王子瞋恨無以復加,還是滅了祖國。自持神通第一目犍連不忍無辜百姓慘糟屠殺,遂以缽盛救度五百族人,最終卻化為血水,佛言神通廣大仍不敵千百劫業力,因緣果報屢試不爽。其母死後墜入餓鬼道飢餓難耐,目犍連遂展神通救渡,但所食尚未入口皆化為赤火,佛陀囑咐農曆七月十五日僧眾解安居自恣日,於盆中設甘露美食供養十方僧眾,因此超度亡母。後世「盂蘭盆法會」乃至「水懺法會」、「瑜珈焰口法會」皆為消業障、斷塵垢之超渡儀軌,既渡亡魂也自懺悔。
台南麻豆代天府規模宏大、造型豔麗,不但可遊十八層地獄尚可逛天堂(1979年興建,1983年開放),燈光絢爛、聲響駭人,獨自漫步宛如觀落陰、地獄走一回。先過「心頭山」、入「清心池」、進「陰陽界」、抵「交簿廳」、達「鬼門關」、遊「補經所」、探「枉死城」、行「奈何橋」,至ㄧ殿泰廣王照「孽鏡台」現造惡原形,睹抱柱、火床等小地獄。二殿楚江王開「陰查簿」判案定奪,觀糞尿泥、餓鬼、舞池、寒冰、膿血、鞭韃、舌犁、劍葉、戟腹拋接、砧截…等小地獄。三殿宋帝王刑罰為倒吊、銅鐵刮臉、挖眼、搗樁、倒烤、吸血、穿肋、抽筋、蛆蛀等小地獄…兼遊「四生(胎、卵、濕、化)回魂府」。四殿五官王掌管腰斬、拔舌、沸湯、刺嘴、剝皮、箭樹、車崩、射眼…等十六小地獄。隨五殿森羅王豋「望鄉臺」回眸親人最終眼後觀擊膝、誅心、刀山、飛刀火石…小地獄。六殿卞城王別稱「大叫喚大地獄」,轄火牛、虎啖、噬腎、鉗嘴含鍼、釘喉、磨摧、砍頭…等小地獄。七殿泰山王為「熱惱大地獄」,窺烙手指、抽腸、頂石蹲身、油釜滾烹、割舌穿腮…等十六小地獄。八殿都市王掌管「大熱惱大地獄」兼火狗、鐵汁、鐵蛇、鋸劈斷肢、釘板、灸脊、鐵丸、磅秤…等小地獄。九殿平等王直轄十八層「阿鼻大地獄」,直透地心、內中陰森、不見五指、滿溢地漿,皆為極犯,另轄紫赤毒蛇鑽孔、夾頂、鐵鴉、針雨、蜂蠍…等小地獄。至十殿輪轉王上「觀生臺」、「轉劫所八司」(查驗司 、稽善司 、考過司 、恩怨司 、壽命司 、支配司、掌劫司 、授生司)後至「孟婆亭」飲「醧忘湯」忘盡前塵往事,依前世功德過金、銀、玉、石、木、竹六種橋樑至「轉輪臺(紫河車)」入六道輪迴轉生投胎。據「十八泥犁經」記載,人過世後七七四十九天為「中陰生」,經閻羅王審判善惡業力判定去留或懲罰百千萬劫,犯五逆重罪則墮入「無間地獄(阿鼻地獄)」永劫不復。地藏王乃幽冥教主,統轄十殿閻羅,逢三曹普渡便在各殿設「講道所」超度尚存善根之鬼魂。
人類居於五趣(阿修羅、人、傍生、餓鬼、地獄)雜居地五濁惡世之堪忍世界,犯十惡業(殺生、偷盜、邪淫、妄語、兩舌、惡口、綺語、貪慾、嗔恚、愚痴)者必墮三趣惡道。如何出「三界」(欲界、色界、無色界)二十八天?凡人無此意識,別說能破「十二因緣」(無明、行、識、名色、六入、觸、受、愛、取、有、生、老死)還滅門,更別想斷除「四聖諦」(苦、集、滅、道)集地八十一品見惑與八十八使思惑(五利使-身見、邊見、邪見、見取見、戒禁取見、五鈍使-貪、瞋、癡、慢、疑),了悟「五蘊」(色、受、想、行、識)本空、「十二入」(眼、耳、鼻、舌、意、色、聲、香、味、觸、法)空、「十八界」空,破俱生我執與分別我執、法執甚至空執,生十一處「善心所」(信、精進、慚、愧、無貪、無瞋、無痴、輕安、不放逸、行捨、不害),降二十六處「惡心所」(貪、瞋、癡、慢、疑、惡見、忿、恨、覆、惱、嫉、慳、誑、諂、害、憍、無慚、無愧、掉舉、惛沉、不信、懈怠、放逸、失念、散亂、不正知),須知善根斷盡則陷永劫輪迴、無垠轉世之苦。
地獄可能空滅嗎?若地獄空乏人間多鬼怪,地獄淨空世間何嘗非淨土?若能證空性何處現地獄?
地獄曠古來便廣泛流傳各部族間,老死生滅為自然運行之基礎、宇宙意識之核心,然今文明昌盛如咱城邦並非慾望消弭之所,惡性所及實無可根除,礙於憲法國家法律社會軍隊企業公司學校家庭團體之層層束縛不亞於十八層,乃遁於壓抑、束己情懷,暗埋心底、日久貪嗔痴慢疑怨噌會疊穢。而六塵未熄,心多妄念,妖魔鬼怪魑魅魍魎孤魂閃靈出沒於荒郊乃至人間,會靈於曠野密林以增性靈乃出世高人修煉之舉,我等凡人擅闖宛如迪士尼般之人造地獄,三魂七魄尚不足以出竅,驚邪恐怖淒厲猙獰倒滿足了自以為是的慚愧,豈不謬哉?
病毒肆虐年半有餘,全球確診者逼近一億八千萬,枉死者近四百萬,堪比戰爭規模,望眾生發慈悲心、令往生者安息、善待其他物種、平等有情眾生。地獄本空,唯妄念生起一切羨慕嫉妒恨而地獄現前。盡以此書作為世界新冷戰獨裁者、超限戰者、暗網駭客、陰險狡猾冷嘲熱諷落井下石者之良知備忘錄矣。
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「呲啪……啪……噠……」我與怪醫克紋哲兩人隔著點距離,盤腿坐在老舊主廳的壁爐前。壁爐中的火焰燃燒著乾柴,劈啪作響,我們一語不發的臉龐上映著變化的火光光影,面皮上暖烘烘的。
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「手術」過程並沒有多久,稍加判斷就開始流利地取出子彈、消毒、包紮處理的克紋哲看起來非常老練……若他沒在途中喃喃說些「皮膚好白」、「體態很不錯」之類的話,我肯定十分尊重他。
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取出子彈、傷口處理的過程讓我印象深刻,儘管當事人裘娜雅早已失去意識,可那大片的乾涸血跡、皮開肉綻的血洞、以鐵鉗戳入傷口內夾出子彈的過程,著實讓人心驚,難以想像她所承受的疼痛。
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一想到此處我的罪惡感就湧出來了,一直在心中咒罵自己是個孬種,一點都不懂得護花……要是我掌握好自己的能力,傷勢也能減少很多吧?
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望了望躺在一旁的裘娜雅,原本緊皺的五官已經放鬆許多,身子也暖了,我才比較放下心來。克紋哲說他給她打了點鎮定劑與局部麻醉,會比較好受一點。
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「嗚嗚嗚──」隔壁廚房內的水燒開了,尖銳的鳴音劃破了沉寂,克紋哲聞聲嘆口息,起身走到廚房弄了點聲響,帶了三杯直冒熱煙的茶水回到小矮桌旁。
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「年輕人,茶來了,可以來聊天了。弄點暖的給你女人喝下吧。」他把兩杯做得扭扭歪歪的陶瓷杯推過來,讓我吹涼了給裘娜雅小口嚥下。我已經不想去糾正他裘娜雅與我不是那種關係了。
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所以剛才那段沉悶的時刻只是因為他在等水開才沒說話嗎?……
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「我曾經有一妻一小,我們是個幸福美滿的小家庭,以前的這裡是沿海的鄉下處,大家都很樸實,幹著自己的本業,只要是不關自己的事,就幾乎不會去插手,彼此都協調得很好。」克紋哲喫了口茶,突然講起了自己的故事。
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「咦?這樣算是樸實嗎?不關自己的事就不去插手這樣聽起來反而不和諧啊……」我皺著眉很輕易地就吐槽出來了。
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「噗咳──嘖,就著茶水分享以前的回憶也會吐血啊……真麻煩。」
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「所以說不要再把吐血怪罪到各種無關的事情上了啦……有病就去看醫生啦,不對,你自己就是醫生,去看自己啦……啊,不,反正趕快去處理啦!」我已經語無倫次。
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結果他也沒有回應我這個村子到底是敦親睦鄰還是兇惡鄰居,就開始自說自話了起來,「其實那時候我雖是醫生出來的,卻也是現在佔領了半個福爾摩沙的『統藝』的走狗。我在那時為手握數十個部隊的副領導,因為領導的一項特殊任務被派到這裡,命令要暗中除掉當時在這一帶企圖組織武力的臺獨。」
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「咦?」克紋哲突然語出驚人,甚至還提到了臺獨的名字,想不到他有這一段歷史。不,我居然遇到了「統藝」的副領導而這又更玄乎了!
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這一下子我立刻就戰戰兢兢了起來,我跟裘娜雅都是「滷肉飯」的人啊,恰好遇到敵方陣營的副頭頭,對我來說根本就是以初心者的等級跟超強隊友直接前進BOSS窟領取大幅經驗值,但現在隊友陣亡我這小蝦米也只有等死的份了,該不會這怪醫生就是專程來釣我們的吧!
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想不到克紋哲又補了一句,讓我惶恐之際也得以緩下心緒,「我猜你們跟現在『滷肉飯』與『統藝』之間的爭鬥有著很深切的關係吧?我雖然當過『統藝』的副領導人,那也不過是十幾年前的事了,早就與他們脫了關係……不,該說讓我家破人亡的,正是『統藝』。閒著也是閒著,很久沒人可以聊聊了,或許對你有幫助,我就來說說吧──」
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我的名字就只有克紋哲三個字,並非權勢人家出生,母親為福爾摩沙產下的混血「島民」,是個在當時被處處唾棄的雜種,而父親就是仿效經典浪漫故事的一位英國人,跟著商隊來到福爾摩沙恰巧碰到了我母親,墜入愛河後產下了我。
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西元制1967年的某處無人破馬廄,是我展開「逃亡人生」的時刻。那時勢力戰依舊持續,戰火平時不會延燒至一般平民百姓的生活處,但常常就會那麼好死不死,整個村子的人被槍砲彈藥波及,匆匆地被化作廢墟,無辜留下的人口或許被惡劣組織擄獲拿去人口販賣、或許被燒殺掠搶、或許什麼事都沒有。
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那個年代要活著其實很需要運氣,但體制已成,改變談何容易,這些被歷史的大河所沖刷下來的時代子民,逃也逃不成,不管是有家世背景的、混血的、原住的,現在沒有權勢,那就只好等衰。
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人人都可悲,也人人都想逞兇鬥狠,開創出屬於自己的一條血路。
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福爾摩沙的勢力戰歷史共分為三個時期:「異國統治初期」、「藩據中期」、「大組織分割的末期」。而造成這樣子的歷史淵源,也是一大段故事了──
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福爾摩沙是四面環海、臨周遭列國的海島國家,在久遠的時期便是許多貿易船隻交互往來間的驛站,為此當時在此處就多少囤積了來自世界各地的貨物。絲綢、香料、皮革、毒品、珠寶、建材、植物、牲畜……以及人種。
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原來當地數量不多的原住民在一次次的驅趕之下退到了山中林間,各地商隊與財團進駐平地,為了將來的長遠打算開始建造自家的根據地,展開了一些計畫。福爾摩沙雖小,卻五臟俱全,就算是沒有的,這裡的商隊也有。最為重要的是,這塊島地的座標與緯度與生態環境成為了極好的耕種地,平地、丘陵、高山等不同的海拔溫度正好成了各方作物的美好溫床,再加上遠航時代的發展到了熱烈的末期,聚集在福爾摩沙甚至成了當時國際間的某種潮流。
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但是一直以來,人種與勢力問題所產生的紛爭便源源不斷,從當時許多英國語系與東南亞系的勢力派別外,還有憤而抗爭的原住民與海盜、犯罪組織,而這即是異國統治初期的背景,也是最長的期間。
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福爾摩沙成了一個亂象的根源,他是最豐富的島國,也是最為無法無天的新世界,而當時駐紮在各地的國家代表商隊與人物,也成了全球國際勢力的競爭擂台賽上的選手,那時候甚至玩到了當地代表若被滅團,遠處的原國家或許就會有被其他大國滅掉併吞的情勢。因為你在這個島上示弱,那原來的國力與其他種種肯定欠佳。
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那時候誰都想在福爾摩沙站穩腳跟、誰都想當大爺、誰都想成為主宰、誰都不願己方的氣勢削減。
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於是,各個無論是合作、併吞、新興還是民間自起的各個組織,在起初引爆的一些大小爭執混戰後,展開了激烈的勢力爭奪戰,刀槍械鬥就這樣永無止盡地擴散下去,形成了當時的藩鎮割據情形,進而演變成了併吞後的大組織勢力戰時代。
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那是好幾十年、甚至過百年的紛亂,在中末期之時對這個現象差不多麻痺的國際,甚至撇下福爾摩沙為一個暫時根據點的概念,取而代之的是一個沒有主權,卻又重要萬分的海島國家。它已經不代表誰,而是屬於在當地如同毒瘤般的各大組織的戰營。
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貿易的繼續貿易,但最終會落入哪一個國家的權勢,大家並不在乎。國際真正在乎的是,若有一個人能統領這個渾沌般的福爾摩沙,那麼這即是一個小而頑劣的新國家崛起之時,這顆星球或多或少都會被它影響。
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從現在往前推的四十多年前、剛展開組織分割末期的紛亂,就是我所生長的時代。那時候能受教育的孩童只有少數一些穩定勢力內的有錢人家,像我這種脫離組織與雜種女人所生下的雜種小孩,連平日要到一個麵包吃都嫌難。
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我父親那時候因為護著母親堅持相愛的己見,被極其自視甚高的英國商隊同夥給唾棄,正好日前又得罪了幾個人,很容易就被弄到剝奪國民身分、不承認血統的程度,好幾次想帶著我母親偷渡離開都失敗,最終只能像許多曾到此處發展的異國人一樣,在這裡流亡失所、自生自滅。
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父母親認了事實也只能盡力謀求生路,兼了許多雜工、學了一技之長,跌跌撞撞地在某處鄉間穩定了下來,然後,我就是故事中常有的野孩子,家庭貧困、跟著同儕學壞、幹壞事、憎恨著欺壓百姓的各個勢力範圍、與打架鬧事的朋友們稱兄道弟。
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當時的社會真的很凌亂,得靠認識壞人作威作福、靠關係以求自保,「自私」是最為正當的觀念,以此為出發點,在泥沼中以自己的凌厲之道謀生。那種少數比較清廉、正當的人,都是最先被滅掉的,我看過好幾個良家婦女長沒多大就被侵犯過了,甚至十五歲的我與一群狐群狗黨,也在世風日下的邊村隨處找了塊田野,對一個朋友鎖定已久的林邊少女輪流施暴。
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那時的印象非常深刻,我永遠忘不了幾個人帶著洩恨、洩慾,甚至是跟著好玩的心態一次次摧殘著那名少女,折磨得體無完膚。那時的我並沒有想什麼,就算罪惡感浮現了一會,很快就又灰飛煙滅。
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我也永遠忘不了,那之後聽到那名少女跳水井自殺的消息。幾個當事人到了她隨處埋葬的地方,只是淡淡地慰問了幾句,「妳要怪就怪自己的命運吧,生在這處垃圾堆之中。也罷,妳也不用再痛苦,希望妳下輩子投胎到一個好人家去。」
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我們一直在憎恨著一切,然後再用這些憎恨,摧毀著周遭的一切,而福爾摩沙的人們也是這麼一直因果循環下去。因為沒有人是好的,只有更壞的欺負壞的、更惡的壓過惡的。
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我十四歲就完全脫離了家庭與那堆狐群狗黨在外頭討生活、幹買賣,做的是一些為狠角色跑腿、詐財、搶奪、欺凌弱小這等惡事。隨著年紀越來越大,幾個兄弟的抱負心也漲大了起來,開始打算加入一些地方組織做起更大的事業──真正的殺人、掠奪,用搶來的東西過生活,最終成立屬於我們自己的天地。
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民間自起的地方幫派組織,勢力遠不如有國家在後背撐腰的。但正因為處於弱勢、處於長期被壓榨欺凌的低窪處,我們的心更野、牙更利、命更硬。那陣子福爾摩沙的勢力已經被併吞成了二、三十多個組織,其中十多個異國組織,其餘全是各地民族組成的「雜種軍」,靠著與貿易海盜交易的槍砲彈藥來搶奪他方領地、增長勢力。我們所加入的南邊組織「頂巾」也是如此。
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年輕氣盛的我們個個以著視死如歸的心態為組織上頭賣命,我們盡十二分的力量去做事──死了讓其他同伴背負夢想繼續活下去、活著就當作是氣數未到繼續給他拼命。這種做事風格很快就讓我們的地位提升,因為誰都想活命,那種不怕死的,誰都怕。
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造成我人生轉捩點的,是有一次與名為「統藝」的組織槓上──那時混戰在北部一處邊海地區引爆,在一次「統藝」與他國貿易商團的輾轉交易中,「頂巾」也不管是誰就見縫插針,運走了貨物還順手滅掉當時他們的人,這下激怒「統藝」,對方以迅雷之勢圍住「頂巾」的本營,等我們在被炸彈炸得天搖地晃的木塌屋中驚醒時,放眼望去整個海邊大寨已經是坑坑疤疤,只幾名全副武裝的黑衣人與後頭支援的炮台就殺得我們措手不及,他們身上那些從未見過的科技武力,實實震懾住我們,威力無比的裝甲彈步槍只一發,肉身連同擋在前方的掩護牆柱一齊迸裂,七十多斤重的大漢悶哼一聲往後騰飛,一口血噴出來當場急死──何況那是一整片的槍林彈雨。
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如同地獄的慘象映入了凌晨間被驚醒的我們眼中,當下只有一個念頭──毫無懸念,這是單方面的屠殺。
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但年輕氣盛的我們,還是拿起了彈藥庫中的獵槍與半自動步槍,如同視死如歸的戰將們隨著周遭的隊伍衝出了大寨,在佈滿野草與石群的沙地間怒吼奔馳,嘗試以量取勝。在對方僅有一個武裝部隊的可怕武力下,將粗糙的鐵彈扎入他們薄甲內的血肉。
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我們那群狐群狗黨那時留下的都是六個最親最好的,一個叫真倉的在一開始的襲擊中被砲火炸得焦黑,也沒時間去哀悼,剩餘五個就這麼跌跌撞撞地在石群間找掩護,踢著沙粒圍住一個背對著我們的敵人。
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「為真倉報仇!打死你這王八,殺了他,再搶走他的武器!不用他們的武器反擊根本沒勝算!」
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「『頂巾』這下子完了,京平,我們要不就這樣偷跑吧?再找一個更有前途的組織。」
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「頓義,你看看周遭!」
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我與其他人環視了周遭一圈,這一看當下心都發毛了,這處沙灘靠近林邊的部分全是某種移動式裝載機甲,在遠處隔著一段距離佇立,對著裡頭的我們虎視眈眈。我從來沒看過那種東西,很像以前在紙上看過的軍事坦克,但那種更小,似乎藏有可怕的火力。我不懂它們為何呆站不動,何不就這樣痛快擊出砲火瞬間殲滅我們?
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個性頑劣放蕩的京平咒罵了好幾下,憤怒地大吼一聲、猛然站起,舉著手上的半自動步槍就這麼往那名背對我們的敵人開火,「去死吧!這下子也逃不掉了,不如就讓我把你們全部殺光!啊啊啊啊啊!」
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我們一見京平動手,也跟著起身瞄準、扣板機,但那名留著一頭黑長髮的冷面青年就像是預知到我們的行動一樣,在我們開槍的那一瞬間矮身俯衝而來,從腰間摘下某種東西擲了過來,於接近我們的空中放射出怪異的火光。
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「嗚、呃啊!啊啊啊啊啊啊!」
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「京、京平!」
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我當下已經矮身躲回石頭後,下一幕見到京平身處在那擴散範圍不大卻散發著劇烈能量的爆炸中,他的全身彷彿被籠罩在某種特殊的熾熱輻射之下,身上的衣物與皮肉瞬間發紅起泡、濺出無數個濃稠的滾燙血漿,短時間內被成了一具半融化的血流焦屍,活生生的人體好比在高溫烤箱下溶解的黏土玩偶。
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見到了京平怵目驚心的慘遇,我的胃液猛地衝了上來,低頭在沙地上狂嘔。那幕強烈的畫面不停衝撞著我的心臟,恐懼蔓延──這是貨真價實的戰爭,才不是我們這種小屁孩玩的逞凶鬥狠,那些武器到底是什麼!這是要怎麼打啊啊啊!
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「啊啊啊啊啊啊!」我聽到頓義的吼叫伴隨著刺耳的槍聲,他瞠大雙目恐懼無比,正對著左右俯衝而來的那名青年不斷掃射,子彈在沙地與石頭上嵌入、彈開,鏗鏗鏘鏘,但對方的身手非常矯健,像我們這種貨色根本打不到他,就這樣被他闖入了我們的小小隊伍之中。
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一道銀白曳光在頓義的面前劃了過去,我見到他的面目噴出了鮮血,在慘叫之下被第二道曳光割斷了氣管。在另一邊呈現呆滯狀態的狼霆與龍賓也被青年所掏出的手槍射殺,兩個人的左胸都中了一彈,無力倒下。
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只一個瞬間,這些年來與我走到現在的朋友們,就這麼成了一具具屍體。這是現實嗎?我們就這麼輕易被結束了生命?連同那些微不足道的抱負?
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開什麼玩笑?太蠢了吧?
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窩藏在一塊石頭邊的我見到遠處的光景皆是「頂巾」同夥的屍體,大寨中的人少說也有三、五百人,竟如螻蟻般成了硫磺燻煙後的殘渣。黃沙被血河染成了橙紅,破壞力廣泛的榴砲與手榴彈在四處炸出了一個個坑洞,連同支離破碎的人體,那幾名如殺神降臨的黑衣人就像殺光我們的青年一樣,個個有著非比尋常的身手。
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我傻傻地笑了,在這樣子的人與這樣子的武力之下,我們到底是在幹什麼的啊?從一出生的家庭、帶在身上的基因與人種,從一開始就有著差異了啊!就如現在一樣,有些東西,就是存在著永遠無法改變的差距……更何況這只是一個可悲的小島上啊!
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絕望感立即充斥著我,直到我聽到了幾聲氣若游絲的話語,立刻將我拉回現實。
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「紋哲……躲起來……然後逃出去……你要背負著我們的命……活下去!不是說好了嗎?若是剩下……最後一個人……就要凝聚著我們未來會獲得的幸福……管你是不是繼續燒殺掠搶,至少給我找個女人、生個孩子啊!至少……活著就強很多了!給我活下去你這王八蛋!」
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最靠近我的龍賓正眼神渙散地念著最後的話,我怔怔地看著這五人之中與我最好的同伴,湧出淚水。
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我只能含淚、點頭、答應,看著最後一位同伴斷氣。大寨的戰爭在短時間內就被了結了,我抹去眼淚心驚膽顫地等待敵方撤兵,矮身在一處大石塊旁的矮溝,希望自己永遠都不要被發現。
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我不知道那名青年有沒有看見我,他殺入這幾處石群之中的時候,碰巧沒走近躲在較遠處的這邊。當時我看到飛來的手榴彈反射性地藏了下去,也是那時的懦弱,救了我一命。
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等待的時間度秒如年,在他們幾個死後的沒多久,那道腳步聲又莫名奇妙地走了過來,我也只得咬著牙、硬著頭皮舉槍備戰。
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青年騰地出現,我當下幾乎是想著要辜負了龍賓的託付開槍,對方的速度近看快得跟鬼一樣,映入眼簾的瞬間他早已衝出我的眼角,瞬間就逼近我打掉我手上的步槍。
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「嗚……」
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我緊緊閉上雙眼、猙獰著臉孔等待死亡,事實卻是過了幾秒都毫無動靜。我睜開眼來,見青年面無表情地站在一旁,道出了令我詫異萬分的話。
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「加入『統藝』吧。」
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「……咦?」
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「我知道你們這種人,只是想宣洩心中的不平與恨意、想要幹大事。你們根本沒有身為『頂巾』一份子的那種矜持與榮譽感,『頂巾』對你們也只是一個過渡期。我殺你沒有任何好處,不如讓你加入我們,不要委屈了你的才能。」
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我張嘴啞口無言,半晌後才大吼:「就在剛剛你殺了我的同伴,你還要我加入你?開什麼玩笑啊!」
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那青年卻淡淡地說:「我知道你這種人。你知道什麼什麼是正確的、什麼是錯誤的。你們闖到這一步誰什麼時候死了都是未知數,但也是你們自找的。你們要的是有意義的性命而非苟延殘喘。這是公平的賭局,賭上了命,輸了就沒了,也無法去怪罪讓你們輸的任何人。比起為那些同伴報仇?你心知肚明,還是帶著他們的意義繼續前進吧。」
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我聞言黯然無語,俯下頭完全無法反駁他所說的。不知是不是我自己詭異的價值觀,對於那些朋友們,我根本毫無報復之心,因為在最初這就是我們決定好的道路,根本不需要所謂的報復,我也沒有太令人悲慟的情緒。只有無限的恐懼。
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但是我現在還有機會可以繼續選擇。
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後來我隨著他加入了那充滿秘密的「統藝」,為了不想再失去往後所擁有的親朋好友,向當時一位醫生學習醫術、沉浸在肌肉組織分布與器官構造的世界,同時提出了許多策略與在外頭立了許多征戰功勞,爬到後來的「統藝」副領導。從那時開始,我立志要改變這整塊小島,我要統一所有的勢力與組織,然後展開變革、結束戰爭。
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當時那名青年就是臺獨,那是我們的初次見面,可在我加入的幾年後,彷彿藏有無數秘密的他「再次」叛變,帶走了非常多的資源與秘密,讓「統藝」損失慘重,進而招兵買馬成立了能與「統藝」抗衡的「滷肉飯」。
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剛開始的幾年他曾幾次誇讚我的理想,可我真正不明白的是,為何要拋棄即將要達成統一的「統藝」,再度成立另一個大型組織抗衡這個理想,繼續讓戰火延燒?
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克紋哲的回憶篇打太多還有第二篇,但我覺得這樣子的效果很不錯我自己也很喜歡。
真的很久沒有更心啊~!寒假那兩周都在埋頭畫畫,也就是開頭那個封面啦!!可能明天我再來PO繪畫過程與心得。
希望大家能繼續看顛倒世界、留留感想!
這是芭辣依卡喔,想不到第二次的我畫的成果好棒!真的自己都超愛她了哈哈。偷偷說芭辣依卡是潛藏第二女主角。
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《顛倒世界》簡介:
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在這裡,人們靠著契機擁有無限的可能性;在鏡子的另一面,人們則因自身無限的可能性而打造屬於自己的契機。
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在看過某個恐怖視頻之前,我只是個被生父母遺棄的孤兒、一個投資工具;在穿過鏡子後,我才發現,我是個很不一樣的存在。我是被需要的。
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所有的事情都一定有它的起因與目的性,生父母、平行世界、另一個世界的「我的存在」、「鏡遊者」……不知是偶發還是命運操弄而成的各種際遇,我找到了屬於自己的歸屬、加入了名字超可笑行事風格卻凌厲無比的黑幫組織「滷肉飯」,跟隨「臺獨」摧毀「統藝」以及其餘盯著這個國家的組織的各種陰險計畫。
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在一面追隨組織一面追殺著「另一個自己」的詭異節奏之中,我們要在這個弱肉強食的世界引發一場腥風血雨的變革,建立此處第一個「民主」。
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