[教育時評]什麼是批判性思考?
Surely we have all heard business executives, policy makers, civic leaders, and educators talking about the term “critical thinking.” But what exactly is it? Why is it considered so useful and important?
我們一定都聽過企業領導者、政策制定者、公民領袖以及教育工作者談論批判性思考。 但這到底是什麼?為何它被認為有效且重要呢?
To a certain extent we all know what “critical thinking” means — it means high-quality thinking. Some might say that is the opposite of illogical or irrational thinking, but this definition still seems vague. Is critical thinking the same as analytical thinking? What about creative thinking?
在某種程度上,我們都知道「批判性思考」的意思——意即優質的思考。也許有些人會說此異於不合邏輯或非理性的思考。但這樣的定義似乎還是很模糊。批判性思考是否與分析性思考一樣?那創造性思考呢?
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Let’s explore the concept further through examples, and use our critical thinking skills together. To come up with a more concrete definition, let us answer the following questions:
讓我們從幾個面向進一步探討這個問題,並一起運用批判性思考。為了提出更具體的定義,就讓我們回答下列問題:
1. What would happen if we did not have critical thinking?
若我們不具備批判性思考會有什麼影響?
2. When do we use critical thinking?
我們何時該使用批判性思考?
3. Can you think of examples of critical thinking?
你能想到有關批判性思考的例子嗎?
4. How do we assess critical thinking?
我們該如何評價批判性思考?
5. Does critical thinking involve working with other people? Why or why not?
批判性思考是否需要與他人合作?為什麼?
By answering these questions, our definition of critical should be becoming more tangible.
藉由回答這些問題,我們對批判的定義應會變得更加明確。
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From experience, most now know that critical thinking is thinking that has a purpose (proving a point, interpreting what something means, solving a problem), and critical thinking can be a collaborative process. Without it, we wouldn't be able to solve complex problems without definite answers in and outside the classroom.
We are bombarded with information and problems on a daily basis in our society today. We need critical thinking to help us process information and solve these problems.
從經驗中,多數人現在知道批判性思考是帶有「目的」的思考(證明觀點、解決問題、詮釋某一事物的意涵),而批判性思考可以是一個協作的過程。沒有它,我們將會遭遇極大的麻煩,因為無論是在課內或課外,當我們在解決複雜的問題時必會遇到困難。在當今的社會中,我們每天都會遭受各種資訊與問題的轟炸。我們需要批判性思考來幫助我們處理資訊並解決這些問題。
If you would like to know the skills involved in critical thinking and listen to a podcast on the topic, leave “What are critical thinking skills?” in the comments. I will post another article on the topic next week if there's enough interest.
若同學想更深入了解批判性思考到底涵蓋了哪些技能,並收聽相關的podcast,歡迎在留言區回覆「What are critical thinking skills?」。若有相當數量的人感興趣,我將於下星期分享第二篇文章~
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參考文獻:
Facione, P. A. (2011). Critical thinking: What it is and why it counts. Insight assessment, 2007(1), 1-23.
McPeck, J. E. (2016). Critical thinking and education. Routledge.
圖片出處:Me thinking about dinner.
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did you have dinner意思 在 趙德胤 Midi Z Facebook 的最佳解答
#尋人啟事
#胡湘荷妳在哪裡
我的母親已八十歲,
疫情期間,
母親常在電話跟我聊一些過去的事情,
母親的記憶力非常好,
從她十歲開始到現在,
她幾乎能記得所有的事情。
當然,
她記的幾乎都是些令人心碎的事。
就像她的妹妹_
我的小阿姨,
跟她失聯了四十三年的事,
一直讓母親忘不了。
小阿姨屬猴,
64歲、
1956年出生。
大約1977年離開緬甸,
去到泰國投靠大舅,
又輾轉在1978年左右去了加拿大。
之後,
就失去了聯絡。
自從有網路以來,
我就幫忙母親在各種尋人版上刊登過尋人啟事,
但都沒有下文。
可能是刊登的資訊不齊全。
四十三年前,
小阿姨從緬甸到泰國又到加拿大,
可能證件、姓名等都跟原本的不一樣了。
近期,
與我母親通話,
母親又提到失聯的小阿姨。
她叮嚀我們是否能幫忙她再找找看。
母親今年八十歲,
她很想知道她的小妹,
是否還活在這世界上?
附上母親說的話,
她讓我公佈在網路上。
希望有緣,
我的小阿姨能看到。
Midi 於永和
2020 April 12
#胡湘荷
#尋人
胡湘荷,妳在哪裡?
阿湘,
我是妳的二姐胡明珠。
我們分別有好長一段時間了。
妳離開緬甸時,
我二兒子才剛出生,
都還不滿一個月,
妳來看他時,
還說:
「他的臉白白的,
是不是我給他擦粉?」
現在,
我二兒子四十三歲,
我呢,
已經快滿八十二歲,
八十多歲,
是老人了。
人家說,
人愈老記性愈差,
我是相反,
我的記性反倒是愈老愈好。
但是,我能記住的,
都是些傷心的事情。
也許,
我們這代人,
也沒有什麼快樂的事情可以記住。
就像妳的離開,
我們從此失去聯絡,
想起妳,
就讓我難過。
妳還活著嗎?
我想妳會活得好好的。
妳有幾個小娃了?
過得怎麼樣呢?
四十三年前,
妳離開腊戌時,
妳還在腊戌漢人學校唸書。
有天放學,
我去攔住妳,
跟妳說:
「妳以後每天下課後就來我家吃飯,
別去大姐家吃了…」
妳說:「好」。
妳也就跟著我到我家吃飯了。
我還記得,
妳才剛坐下,
我不知怎麼搞的,
就說了那些話。
我說:
「大姐讓妳以後來我這裡吃飯,
別去她家吃了,
讓妳三姐去她家吃,
妳三姐不挑嘴,
妳比較挑嘴…」。
這些話,
是大姐跟我說的,
我當時太懵,
太老實,
我也不曉得,
為什麼要說這些大姐講的話?
為什麼要講給妳聽?
我完全,
沒有擔待不了妳的意思呀。
不管多窮,
姐妹間互相照顧都是應該的,
我轉述大姐說妳的那些話,
是沒有任何理由的,
就是我以為是姐妹之間的聊天,
講出來而已。
我那時候過得很困難,
養著六個小娃,
病死了兩個。
但是,
照顧自己的妹妹是天經地義的。
那天,
我邊說就邊到廚房去炒菜,
難得妳來這裡吃飯,
總要多一樣什麼菜才行。
我炒完菜端著出來,
妳就不見了。
當時,
房東許老嬤嬤還在場,
她說,
「我轉進廚房,
妳就站起來走了…」
我那時才發覺;
我講錯話了。
妳這麼敏感的人呀!
我一路追著妳,
追到大水塘路上_
到妳跟妳三姐住的地方,
妳正在哭。
妳正在哭著跟妳三姐吵架,
妳跟妳三姐說:
「二哥寄來的錢分來…」
妳三姐不敢應妳,
在旁沉默著。
這筆妳要的錢,
確實是妳二哥寄來給妳們兩姐妹的生活費。
那時,
媽媽剛去世不久,
大哥人去了泰國;
在泰國北部滿堂安了家,
家裡所有的兄弟陸續去了泰國。
而爸爸因為沒身份證在貴概被移民局抓住,
送到仰光坐滿九年牢,
緬甸政府正打算著把他送到台灣去的時候…
那天,
我看著妳哭,
我就明白了妳的心情。
妳三姐在準備跟她愛人私奔,
在腊戌妳也只有大姐、我和妳三姐了。
我和大姐早結婚,
各自已有有家庭。
如今妳三姐又要嫁人,
大哥他們又遠在泰國,
母親去世,
父親坐牢。
妳接下來就要孤苦零丁的一個人生存了。
一個十八歲的女孩。
我知道妳的害怕和難過。
那天,
看著妳哭,
我很後悔把大姐說的話講出來。
妳應該了解我的。
我一直都盡力照顧我的家人,
當時從雲南背著妳逃難到緬甸邊境,
背了一天一夜。
我都是自願的。
妳記得嗎?
妳到腊戌讀書時,
很想要一條件仔褲,
那時許多人都買不起,
我還是費盡力氣買給妳。
妳知道我是心疼妳的。
妳離開腊戌的那天,
妳說妳要去泰國了。
臨走時,
我拿了300塊錢給妳,
妳知道嗎?
那時候我拿出300塊錢緬幣是到處借來的錢呀。
阿湘,
我知道妳一直都在受苦,
去到泰國,
大嫂可能待不得妳,
妳二哥、三哥他們當時也沒能力照顧妳,
妳在泰國又沒有合法的身份;
哪可能有其它去處。
最後妳選擇結婚,
我想也只是為了解脫這些難過的生活罷了。
之後,
就聽說妳嫁了人,
跟著丈夫家去了加拿大。
之後,
我就再也就打聽不到妳的下落了。
我們最後的連繫,
停留在泰國北部滿堂,
或是停留在泰緬邊境美賽,
我都有些記不得了。
那時,
聽說妳從大哥家跑出來了?
又聽說妳去暫住在一對老年夫妻的家裡?
這些,
都是後來傳到腊戌的消息了。
妳去加拿大前,
還寄來給我和大姐和妳三姐每個人一件衣裳布、
一條籠基。
三份禮物裡夾著三張白紙,
寫著:「大姐的、二姐的、三姐的…」。
我還記得,
那是託「義號佛堂」楊前人帶來的禮物。
那條籠基到現在我還留著_
孔雀花紋的。
阿湘,
我這個作二姐的也羞愧妳了。
當時,
聽到這些關於妳的困難的消息,
只能每天想念著,
想到傷心,
我沒有任何能力。
那時,
我是,
連從緬甸腊戌到泰國邊境的車票都買不起呀。
當時我養著這麼多小娃,
吃一口飯都難。
阿湘,
現在講這些都只是回憶了,
都是我們老人家的回憶,
都不重要了。
那為什麼還要講這些呢?
就是,
為了,
想讓妳看到,
看到這些我說的話,
證實,
我是妳的二姐而已。
想讓妳知道,
我一直在找妳。
我活到八十歲,
夠了,
人活這麼老沒什麼意思,
都盡是傷心的事情。
我不知哪天會死去。
但如果可能的話,
在死去之前,
能讓我知道一下妳的消息。
我想知道,
妳在哪裡?
我想知道,
妳還活著嗎?
阿湘,
爸爸十幾年前已經去世,
大哥六年前去世,
連大姐,
前年也不在世上了。
妳二哥;
他住在泰國山邊荒地裡,
幫人家看田地,
過得不是很好,
但也不用擔心,
我在泰國的二兒子和大姑娘時常會去照顧他。
妳三哥,
講到也是讓我難過呀。
他大前年腦出血,
去醫院醫好了,
但醫好後,
很奇怪,
突然忘記了漢人話,
只會講泰國話。
後來不久,
他就偷偷上吊自殺了。
你說,
我們兄弟姐妹這是什麼樣的命運呢?
阿湘,
我們家沒剩下什麼人了,
妳三姐、妳四哥還在泰國。
還有我,
我還活著。
我還在緬甸,在腊戌。
除了妳,
我們一家人也就剩下這三個人了。
阿湘,
我們已經分別已四十三年,
妳也有六十多歲了吧?
我很想知道,
妳在哪裡?
妳還活著嗎?
如果有緣,
妳看到這信,
就回我一下吧。
妳的二姐胡明珠,
日日夜夜,
在等妳的消息。
二姐胡明珠 於緬甸腊戌
2020 年4月11日
姪Midi代筆
找人信箱:humingju1638@gmail.com
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#notice for a missing person
translated by Jane Lin
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Where are you, Hu Shine-Ho?
Ah-Shine,
This is your 2nd sister, Hu Ming-Ju. It has been a long time since we last saw each other. When you left Burma, my 2nd son was not even one-month-old. You asked why he was so fair-skinned? Had I put powder on his face? Now, he is 43 and I am almost 82.
Eighty something...I am indeed an old woman! People say that you lose your memory as you age. I am quite the opposite. The older I get, the better I remember! But, what I remember is nothing but sadness. Perhaps, our generation just doesn't have much happiness. Like you leaving home, we losing contact forever…. The thought of you puts me in such despair. Are you still alive? I imagine you living a good life?!! How many children? How are you?
Forty-three years ago, you were still a student at Chinese High School in Lashio. One day after school, I went to intercept you, "From now on, come to my home after school. Don't go to 1st sister's for dinner anymore." You said, "OK" and followed me home.
I still remember clearly that you had just sat down and I said, "The first sister asks that you come to me for dinner. She will take 3rd sister who's easy-going, not like you, a picky eater." I don't know what possessed me that day? Why I had to tell you what 1st sister had to say? Was I too naive? Too honest? Too stupid? I had absolutely no intension not to take care of you - we are sisters!!!! We have to care for each other, no matter how poor we are!!! The first sister's words just came out as a casual chat between sisters. Nothing more!
Life was tough for me at the time. Diseases took away two of my six children. But that didn't mean I would ignore my God-given responsibility as your elder sister. Without realizing the impact of my "casual chat", I went into the kitchen wondering what additional dish I could come up with for your first dinner with us. When I came out with the dishes, you were already gone! According to our landlady, Granny Hsu, you just got up and left as soon as I was out of sight. Only then did I realize my stupid mistake and how sensitive you were! Immediately, I ran after you, all the way to Big Pond Road where you and 3rd sister stayed. You were crying, asking 3rd sister for the money that 2nd brother sent. 3rd sister just kept quiet.
Indeed! The money that you demanded from 3rd sister was to cover living expenses for both of you. At that time, Mother had already passed away. The first brother went to Thailand, had already settled his own family in Pong Ngam. All the brothers followed suit. Father got caught in Kutkai by the immigration for not having an I.D. and had been in prison in Rangoon for 9 years. The Burmese government was just about to send him to Taiwan…. That day, while watching you cry, I understood how you felt. The third sister was getting ready to run away with her lover and both 1st sister and I were married young with our own families to deal with. As an 18-year-old with no mother, a father in prison, you must have felt all alone, sad and very scared.
I was filled with regrets watching you that day. But, please understand that I have always tried my best to take care of my family. When we escaped from Yunnan to Burma as refugees, I carried you on my back all day and all night without any complaints. When you went to Lashio for school, you wanted a pair of jeans so badly, remember? It was such a luxury that most people could not afford. Yet, I gathered all my might to get you a pair. You know I always have a soft spot for you, don't you? The day you were leaving Lashio for Thailand, do you know how many places I had to try to gather 300 Burmese kyats for you???
Ah-Shine, I know it was a huge struggle for you in Thailand. It's impossible that 1st sister-in-law would put you up. Second and 3rd brothers were in no position to help you….. I suppose you were pushed into marriage, just to end this desperate situation. Last I heard, you moved to Canada with your husband. From that point onward, in spite of all the efforts, I just couldn't find any trace of your whereabouts.
Our last contact stopped at Pong Ngam, Thailand. Or, was it MaeSai? I can't quite remember now. The news came to Lashio that you had run away from 1st brother's home. Later, you were temporarily staying with an older couple….
Before leaving for Canada, you sent, via Abbott Yang of the Yi Buddhist Hall, a package for us - each gift had a piece of dress fabric and a longyi, clearly labeled on a piece of white paper: "for 1st sister," "for 2nd sister," "for 3rd sister." I still have that longyi, with a peacock pattern, after all these years!
Ah-Shine, I feel deeply embarrassed to be your elder sister. Upon hearing the challenges that you had to face at the time, I could do nothing but worrying and feeling sad. I couldn't even afford the bus fare from Lashio to the Thai border. I barely managed to feed my own children!
Ah-Shine, What's the use of talking about these old memories? These sad memories of us old people have no importance but to serve to show you that I am indeed your 2nd sister.… that I have been looking for you all these years.
To live in my eighties is more than enough for me. It's not much fun to live this long - just a lifetime of sadness. I have no idea when I will die and I don't really care. I just wish that I could hear from/about you before I leave this world. I want to know where you are. I want to know if you are still alive.
Ah-Shine, Father passed away more than a decade ago. The first brother left us 6 years ago, so did the first sister 3 years ago. The second brother works as a field caretaker in a remote Thai mountainside. It's not a good life, but both my 2nd son and first daughter are also in Thailand; can visit and take care of him often. The saddest is our 3rd brother. He had a stroke 3 years ago. After recovery, he suddenly forgot his Chinese, could only speak in Thai. Not long after, he hanged himself! Please tell me what kind of fate has been bestowed on our siblings??? What is the meaning of life???
Ah-Shine, There aren't that many of us left, only 3rd sister and 4th brother in Thailand and me still in Burma. In Lashio.
Ah-Shine, We have been apart for 43 years. You should be in your 60s by now. I really would like to know if you are still alive and where you live. God willing, you will see this letter and reply!!! (humingju1638@gmail.com)
Waiting to hear from you, day and night!
Second sister, Hu Ming-Ju
Lashio, Myanmar
April 11. 2020
did you have dinner意思 在 The Little Balu Facebook 的最佳貼文
這是讀者send給我的,希望能和大家分享7.21元朗恐襲的情況。
歡迎轉載,讓更多人看見香港發生了甚麼事。
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〈完美的一天 A Perfect Day〉
尋日(2019年7月21日)爭少少就係完美嘅一天。
It is almost a perfect day yesterday (21 July 2019).
我係一個普通嘅香港市民,八十後、基督徒、亦係天水圍人,尋日係星期日,我如常同太太出返九龍區嘅教會返崇拜,食完個晏就同太太同朋友去咗尖沙咀行街,之後喺海運戲院睇《反斗奇兵4》,然後食完飯就坐西鐵返屋企。
I am a normal Hong Kong citizen. Born in the 80's, a Christian who lives in Tin Shui Wai. Yesterday was a normal Sunday. I went back to church to join the worship with my wife in Kowloon, joined our friends for lunch in Tsim Sha Tsui, watched Toy Story 4 at the Grand Ocean cinema, and went back home after dinner by West Rail.
大約晚上十點幾喺柯士甸站上西鐵,上咗西鐵一切都好平常,直到接近十一點左右去到元朗站,月台上面傳來大叫「有人受傷、需要支援」嘅呼叫聲,而列車亦因為混亂無法開車,我就落咗去大堂睇一睇發生咩事,老婆留咗喺車廂入面。原來大堂果度一班喺閘入面嘅人已經開緊遮,佢哋俾一班閘外面身穿白色tee裇嘅人以木棍、水樽、棒球棍襲擊緊,出唔到閘。我最初觀察白衫人大約有四五十人左右,都係中年,亦有較年長嘅,識講廣東話粗口,兇神惡煞,非常激動。
At about 10pm, we were at the Austin Station, everything looked normal in the West Rail train. Our train arrived at Yuen Long Station just before 11pm, we heard a screaming, "Someone's hurt, we need backups!", and our train was stopped because of this confusion. I asked my wife to stay in the train, while I got off and went down to the station lobby to see what happened. Inside the gate, there were people holding their umbrellas up, defending from a group of gangsters who were all wearing white-shirts, attacking people inside the gate with wooden sticks, water bottles and baseball bats. People were trapped inside. There were around 40 to 50 white-shirt gangsters, mainly in their middle-aged, some were even older, shouted fiercely in Cantonese foul languages with agitation.
閘內地下留有鮮血血跡,我亦望到遠處閘外大堂有一名傷者受傷倒地,不斷俾白衫人凶緊,因為情況太危險我就無出閘幫手。我本身後退緊,打算上返車廂,就喺呢個時候閘內嘅市民突然全部退後,一湧而來,部份人衝入廁所,其他人就喺我身邊經過衝上扶手電梯梯同樓梯上月台,打算入車廂。
There were fresh blood stains on the floor inside the gate. Outside the gate not far away, there was someone injured, lying down on the floor, constantly threatening by a white-shirt gangster. I did not go out and help him due to the dangerous situation and I tended to go back up to the train. At that very moment, people inside the gate were suddenly moved back towards me. Some rushed into the washroom, others ran passed me and dashed to the platform through the escalators and staircase, and planned to reach the train for safety.
我見身邊有人跌倒,想幫又幫唔到手。然後白衫人已經殺到埋身,我正準備跑上扶手電梯上月台嘅時候就俾人從後襲擊咗後腦一下,我一邊跑一邊回望,睇到一個白衫人拎住枝棒球棍對住扶手電梯上面嘅人(包括我)大聲叫罵「 ___ 你老母」(第一個字聽得唔太清楚,請自行填充。)
Someone fell down next to me, I wished to help but I couldn't. The white-shirt gangsters were fast approaching, and I was about to rush back to the escalator. All of a sudden, I was attacked at my hindbrain, out of nowhere! I kept running and looked back at the attacker, it was a white-shirt gangster who was holding a baseball bat, yelling to the people (including me) on the escalator: YOU MOTHER _______ ! (I didn't hear it clearly, fill-in as you like)
我繼續上返月台,之後回頭望佢並無再追上嚟。我同其他乘客求奇衝入咗最尾一卡車廂,本身我都唔知自己流血,後來有其他乘客話我知我流緊血至知自己受咗傷。最後有啲熱心嘅乘客幫我消毒同包扎傷口(回想返先記得我咁大個仔都係第一次用M巾),同埋讓咗個位俾我坐。
I kept fleeing back to the platform, that white-shirt gangster had stopped chasing us. I went in the train with other passengers, and I did not even realized that I was bleeding until someone told me. Some very friendly passengers helped me to clean and wrap the wound (well, that was the first time I used sanitary pad), and nice enough to give me a seat.
過程之中我一邊用電話聯絡返老婆同佢報平安,佢話有人入咗車廂打人。而身邊嘅乘客都好不安,因為好擔心白衫嘅黑社會(我嗰刻至知原來係黑社會嚟嘅)會衝入嚟打人,好想快啲開車。同時亦開始有人話前面車廂(我係車尾)已經打緊,情況好混亂,好多人都好驚同鼓譟。唔知過咗幾耐(好似港鐵出咗聲明「詳細交代事件」,應該有寫詳細時間),我就坐返同一班列車去天水圍站,匯合返我老婆同遇到救護員,送咗去天水圍醫院,聯咗三針。我喺急症室等候期間,都不斷有被打受傷嘅人送入嚟急症室,估計有五至六個都係喺西鐵被襲的。
I was talking to my wife through the phone throughout the whole process. She told me that those gangsters were attacking people inside the train. Passengers around me were extremely worried, we were all afraid that those white-shirt Triad gangsters (now I knew they are Triad) will storme in and attack. We all hope that the train will move out from the station soon. At the same time, people were saying that there were attacks at the train head (I was at the tail), we were all in confusions and panics. After some minutes (looks like the MTR has made a statement regarding the detailed time), the train has finally moved, and I arrived Tin Shui Wai Station at last. I found my wife, we went straight to an Ambulanceman and admitted to the Tin Shui Wai Hospital afterwards, where I had my three stitches done. While I was waiting in the Emergency Room, 5 or 6 more injured people were sent in due to the West Rail attack.
急症室當值嘅警察都有主動問我係咪需要報案,我考慮咗一陣最後都同意咗,後來重案組亦係大約兩三個鐘後嚟同我落口供,佢問完個人資料之後,第一個問題就係問我有無出去遊行。我答無,佢好似有少少疑惑,我就拎返我張染咗血漬嘅《反斗奇兵4》嘅票尾比佢睇,佢先至再繼續同我落口供。最後我搞到清晨五點幾至返到屋企。
Policeman stationed in the Emergency Room has asked if I need to file a report. I had agreed after some consideration. The Crime Unit has also arrived after 2 to 3 hours to take my statement. After taking my personal information, he asked directly, "Did you join the protest march today?" I said, "No". He looked doubt. I took out the Toy Story 4 ticket stained with my blood and showed him, then he stopped questioning me. Eventually, I went home at about 5am.
其實本身尋日都係好平常嘅一日,同老婆行街、睇戲、食飯。之前我一直都有留意社會上發生嘅事,知道社會瀰漫住好多負面情緒。所以尋日我本身都打算俾自己抖一抖,放低時事一日。無奈就喺我休息、喺我最平常嘅生活當中,遇上咗無差別嘅襲擊,正所謂「我唔搞政治、政治一樣會嚟搞我」。我俾人扑濕,一定係我有做錯,而我最錯嘅係咩?我諗應該係因為我睇咗美帝嘅卡通電影。
It was a very normal day yesterday - shopping with my wife, watching movie, have a great dinner. I know what had happened lately in this city and how desperate people are these days. So I planned to have a relaxed day and free from the news. The ironic part is, on the day I was trying to rest and have a life, it was the day I encountered the indiscriminate attack. There is this saying, "you don't mess with politics, politics will mess with you eventually". I was attacked, so I must have done something wrong? What did I do wrong? Oh, I guess it must have been about me watching the American animation.
我知道我受嘅傷,同喺中上環俾警察無預警下開槍射傷嘅市民比,實在係微不足道(其實佢哋更應被關注!)。不過身邊聽到我經歷嘅朋友都好驚、好忿怒,其實我都係好忿怒、好無助,我地都無辦法明白到底點解坐西鐵返屋企會俾黑社會打,而點解警察又唔嚟阻止?但我更加感受到嘅係市民果種恐懼同絕望感,人群閃躲之際有人跌倒,有人落單,大家衝入車廂果陣會唔會發生人踩人?我老婆都陪伴咗個受驚而情緒失控嘅少女。大家都好驚、好恐懼、好絕望、好furious。人係受威脅之下,會出現figh-or-flight的反應,喺腎上腺素嘅驅使之下,一係會反擊,一係會逃走,但手無寸鐵嘅市民被圍困係車廂中被人撳住嚟打,既不能fight , 又不能flight,果種絕望同恐懼的確唔係三言兩語講得明白,往後嘅心理創傷同陰影烙印,可以係一生之久。
Comparing to those protesters shot by the Policemen without warning in Sheung Wan and Central, I was nothing (we should pay more attention to them instead!). But friends around me were shocked and outraged about my attack. To be frank, I was shocked too. Who would imagine that attack will come when I was just taking the West Rail train back home? And where were the Policemen when we need them? And most of all, I experienced the same fear and desperation with the passengers. People were dodging, falling down, left behind, there could be stampede when we rushed back to the train! My wife had also stayed and comforted a young girl who had almost lost control because of the frightening situation. Everyone was afraid, worried, hopeless and furious. When people are being threatened, there is a response called "fight-or-flight". The adrenaline will drive you to either fight back or take flight. Unfortunately, when we were unarmed and trapped inside the train, we cannot fight back, we cannot take flight, there is no word to describe the despair and fear in that scenario. The psychological trauma and shadow can be life-long.
的確,喺某啲人眼中,無論我係幾無辜被打,我走得慢所以我都依然係抵死,又或者一定係我經過元朗所以抵打。但我呢刻已經無力去鬧爆佢哋,咁做對我嚟講亦係無乜意思。我唔覺得襲擊我嘅人有幾大機會會被繩之於法,我亦都唔想停留喺去點樣出呢啖氣。難道戰爭中國家的政府會為一個被殺嘅平民作出調查麼?戰時社會有戰時嘅生存法則,我不得不面對現實:香港其實同戰爭社會已經無乜大分別,香港警隊同呢個政府係點做嘢,我已經無興趣知。
Some people may say, regardless of how innocent I am, that still, I was to blame. Maybe I ran too slow so I was meant to be attacked. Maybe I passed by Yuen Long so I should have known it better. I do not want to debate with their accusations, it is meaningless anyway. In my believe, there is no hope in taking the attacker down in my case, and I have no intention to take revenge. You see, when there is war in a country, the government will not take it serious when a citizen got killed. Wartime society has its own law of survival, and I have to deal with this reality: Hong Kong is in war now, and I have zero interest in what the HK Police Force and the government will take serious into.
但我都仍然想表達,香港人真係好有愛,喺亂世之時,大家都仍然能夠守望相助,我感受到被愛。車上嘅乘客不斷安慰我,不斷喺有限嘅物資之中幫我消毒止血做急救,救護員都幫咗我好多,我嘅朋友本身已經返咗喺市區嘅屋企都衝返入嚟睇我,亦有朋友係專登揸車入嚟,我嘅屋企人陪我喺急症室等通宵。所有朋友嘅安慰、慰問同祝福我都感受到。
There is one thing I must say. Hong Kong people are really full of passion. During this chaotic time, people are still willing to look after each other. I am blessed with their love: Passengers on the train have comforted me, treated my wound carefully when there is lack of first-aid materials; the professional treatment by the Ambulancemen; some friends have even rushed back after arriving their homes in downtown, one even drove his car all the way to the hospital; my family who have stayed with me in the Emergency Room throughout the whole night; all the comforts, loves and blessings from my friends…I am so blessed.
我唔係想講受襲嘅事唔重要,或者我要淡化、粉飾太平,我相信任何一個有良知嘅人都會對所有尋晚係西鐵上無辜受襲嘅市民感到心痛同忿怒。不過,我亦知道我哋呢種忿怒已經無處可容,因為呢個社會嘅制度已經崩壞,極權肆虐到一個點係唔可能再容許我哋有自己嘅思想同感受。塗鴉一個圖案可以係破壞政府管治基礎嘅底線,如此荒謬嘅話仲係出自一區首長之口,譴責圖案受破壞,比危殆嘅人命還緊要,我就明白到,無人性嘅極權眼中又點會睇到平民百姓人命價值嘅可貴?呢個邪惡嘅政治制度不過係想透過「收買人命」嘅恐慌嚟製造威權管治嘅理由,逼使人民放棄思想同抗爭,做個順民去拜服極權,等佢哋以為自己可以千秋萬世。
I will not say that the attack is not important, or lighten it up or paper over the cracks. Anyone have conscious will definitely be heartbroken and ambushed about the attack at the West Rail. But the truth is that, our outrageous has nowhere to escape. Our society system is corrupting, the totalitarianism is raging brutally to a point where no one is allowed to have their own thinking and feeling. When a simple graffiti is an act to test the bottom line of the government's governance, when the Chief Executive ridiculously condemns the destruction of a symbolic device more than the vicious attack to innocent citizen, I know that our lives have absolutely no values to these senior officials. This evil political system is taking lives, creating the chaos and the reason for their stuck-up governance, forcing the people to give up fighting, while eventually the people will worship them as gods with their kingdom lasts forever.
但係,在荒謬絕倫、置身喺邪惡陰謀嘅被襲經驗之中,我感受到身邊仍然有可愛嘅人,無論係素未謀面嘅乘客、救護員、定係我嘅朋友同家人,係佢地嘅愛同關心,使我能夠克服果種面對荒謬時嘅無助感,令我能夠有信心繼續行落去,有勇氣去面對果份無可躲避嘅恐懼,有盼望去戰勝果啲因擔心無差別隨機攻擊而帶嚟嘅心理壓力。
However, in this ridiculous attack experience under the evil conspiracy, there are lovely people around me: passengers , Ambulancemen, friends and family, for their loves and comforts give me the strength to overcome the helpless feeling throughout this absurd situation, the faith to move on, the courage to face the inevitable fear, and the hope to concur the in-depth pressure caused by the desperation of the indiscriminate attack.
昨日的我,經歷了被襲擊,令我完美的一天不再完美,但我卻在遭害和恐懼當中發現了愛和勇氣,是香港人守望的愛。
I was attacked yesterday, and it made my perfect day imperfect. But I found love and courage in the time of danger and fear. Hong Kong people do watch over for each other.
是的,香港人很有愛,所以我們值得擁有比現在更好的社會領袖和政治制度,We deserve better。因為你們有愛,所以我能夠不再怕遭害。因為你們有愛,所以我能夠堅持這個心願。因為你們有愛,所以我有信心香港人能夠一齊撐落去。
HongKongers are so full of love, that is why we deserve better society leaders and political system. We DO deserve better. Because of your love, I do not fear the danger. Because of your love, I can hold tight to hope. Because of your love, I have faith that HongKongers can stick together and make our own future.
香港人,加油💪🏻!
HongKongers, ADD OIL!