So the big girl had a class excursion to the museum yesterday and came back to school at 4pm. Then the school admin officer called me to inform me that she had just vomitted and said "I know she goes home on her own but can you come to pick her up now?"
I definitely would have, if not for the fact that two younger ones were sleeping and it would have been a huge feat dragging two cranky ones out of the door with me in a couple of minutes. Would you have left them at home and dashed out? I didn't see it as an option at that time. So I told the staff my situation and said "I think she can still walk home, can you let her know I am waiting for her here?"
Very bad of this mum, right? I waited anxiously and felt guilty but relieved to see her home ten minutes later. She told me the vomitting was likely due to motion sickness from the travelling and I told her to take a shower and have a rest. After that, she had a light dinner, did her homework and went to bed early.
This morning, she woke up, had no appetite but went to school as usual with her sister. In less than half an hour, she called me and told me she was feeling dizzy. I asked if she wanted to take a rest in the sick bay and see how it goes or if she would want to come home and take the day off. She decided to take a rest and then twenty minutes later, called again to tell me "Mummy, I am better now. I will go back to class." It was a choice she made on her own but I'm so proud of her. She has to stay back in school again this afternoon yet somehow, a voice tells me that this girl will be all right.
It's a sign and reminder to me of how she is forced to grow up faster, be more mature and independent, and why I sometimes find it hard to deal with her strong-willed character. If anything, I made her this way and she is like a mini version of me. Just prettier, more artistic and even stronger.
May you always be able to pick yourself up after a fall and ride out the storm in life, my dear Angel.
P.S. Hopefully one day I can do an armstand like you. You are doing awesome, my dear.
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