[出走地平線：何方何解]
Flattening The Curve: Where I am not why
我成長的地方面向一望無際的海洋，可以說我是隨海長大。
我的背後是遼闊的澳洲沙漠，它流傳著神聖的土著傳說，自己一直沒去過，但它潛藏在我的靈魂深處。
我常覺得自己是訪客、旅客。因著某種原因，我雖在家卻沒有家的感覺。
真正讓我嚮往的只有書和啤酒。
圍繞書本的生活、地方和經驗，遠勝於我在悉尼的鄉郊生活。
所以到18歲的時候，我跳上貨船出海。
整整三年，我航海遊遍世界，也有六、七年時間靠岸做著各式各樣的工作，我曾經在阿姆斯特丹的背包客棧打工，在巴黎做司機，也在聯合國巴黎總部外的一間情侶酒店做過前台服務員，甚至在以色列基布茲做過「牛仔」修補圍欄，照顧牲畜等工作。
時光飛逝，我發現自己已在印度北部掘井，這裡是釋迦牟尼當年居住和授課的地方，我一貧如洗得像「印度人」。每個我曾打工的村落都有自己的傳統、需要和語言。
我糊裡糊塗試著一天以兩至三種方言跟人溝通。
過程混亂又充滿挫折，從來沒有這種經驗，卻讓我發現自己想從頭學習一種文化。
I grew up by sea looking out on its endlessness and all it promised.
Back of me was the vast Australian desert, with all its sacred aboriginal lore I had no
access to and yet was heavy in my soul.
I always felt like a guest, a visitor. For some reason I didn’t feel “at home” at home.
It was only in books and beer that t I felt where I needed to be.
The life and places and experience of books seemed so much more than
my suburban Sydney world.
So at the age of 18 I jumped on a cargo ship and went to sea.
I travelled the world by ship for three years and by land for another 6 or 7 years doing everything from working in an Amsterdam backpackers hostel, chauffeur in Paris, desk duty what was basically a love hotel just outside the United Nations Paris headquarters, and a “cowboy” mending fences and caring for livestock on an Israeli Kibbutz.
Time passed and I found myself digging wells in the north of India. It was the same area where Siddhartha lived and taught. I was very poor and very “ Indian” . Each village I worked had different customs, different needs and different languages.
I was muddling along trying to communicate two or three different dialects a day.
It was confusing and frustrating so it was out of this experience I realised I wanted to start to learn a culture from the basics.
攝於拍攝電影《春光乍洩》（1997）
Photo was taken in shooting "Happy Together" (1997)
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