Today I felt the need to share few words… 💭
That quarantine has been a good way to have some reflection time. But the deeper i went to, the more anxiety I felt. I’m not sure if i’m asking myself the right question or if I know myself enough. I’m someone who always had goals in my life, always had a big picture of what I want to become. However after reaching some goals I had, that picture started to change and now it’s just a blurry one. I found myself under some spotlights without looking for them, got attention I never asked for and terribly grew that impostor syndrome within me.
Social media doesn’t help. Maybe i’m using it the wrong way but it started to become an obligation, a burden, rather than a pleasure, with all kind of negative psychological effects it can bring. Forcing to be exposed without feeling to be social. I feel narcissism became a strength nowadays and to be honest i’m having hard time following the trend.
If I look outside that box made up by my mind, there are plenty of things to be grateful for, plenty of reason to be happy, but somehow I have those questions marks spinning around.
I see vulnerability as a first step to change so here are my current thoughts shared with you 🖋
