7. 🌸 Sharon
I enjoy all the beauties and the good in life: a bouquet of flowers, rainbows, the delicacy of porcelain china, the touch of snuggly fabrics, the scent of nature, the list could go on and on.
Samuel and I married early, we bought our first apartment with limited budget, I still tried hard to make the most of it to fit my “perfection”.
The small balcony was filled with plants and flowers. It was my secret garden, I can sip my cup of coffee and watch my greens all morning.
Not just the balcony; my kitchen was equipped with aesthetic and functional silverware and pots; I knocked down the tiles provided by the construction company, just to choose my own tiles, not to mention what I went through to find the right fabric and color for those hand towels.
Thus, I can not accept the fact that I was going to spend the rest of my life in a wheel-chair.
There was no more perfection.
The first year was the darkest time in my life. It felt like decades. No matter how hard I tried to squirm out of the whirlpool of darkness, the more I struggled, the more I was sucked into it. I was drowning.
There’s so much than what you see “a person in a wheelchair” who’s paralyzed. You don’t have bladder control, you suffer dysautonomia which simply means you have pains and cramps sending to your system by your damaged nerves. There are also issues like obesity, osteoporosis, and kidney, heart and lungs problems.
My stubborn tumor cuts me from T8-9, meaning from about 3 cm above my belly button until my waist down, I don’t feel a thing, and I can’t budge a toe. All of a sudden, from 167 cm tall, I became 125cm. With that height, I can’t see the faces of people, I can’t smell the fresh air, and no more scenic views for me.
Due to the PTSD, I started to lose weight, but with no balance and muscle to straighten my back, my tummy always stuck out. I looked like a shrimp that has a 6 months belly in a wheel chair. I had to throw out all my tight and pretty clothes in change of clothes that could cover up the bulging tummy, and easy to put on pants with elastic waists. My beloved shoes had to go too, my feet are easily swollen, I need bigger shoes.
My choice of clothing and trend was banished.
The nerve pains follow me EVERY SINGLE DAY, 24-7. The medications can only do so much. Isn’t it an irony? I can’t feel my son’s hands touching my legs. Or someone just come and pinch me, let me get some real pain here. Nope, they are all gone. Dealing with the pains of my body takes up most of my energy everyday.
I had to record everything that I take in and out too. I had to decide to rely on adult diapers or to use catheter. My pride and frustration was about to explode. It took one year with the help of my doctor to understand my body and find the way that I was most comfortable with.
My legs are paralyzed, and my weight kept on dropping. Physically and mentally I was a mess.
I could never get to my balcony anymore; my pretty tiles had handles on them; my velvet dresser chair became an obstacle for my wheel chair, so it had to go.
My porcelain tea cups were too high for me to reach. I can no more decorate my table exactly the way I want to.
These were nothing compared to how I had to pretend everything was alright with in front of Andrew. He was two, and he was just ecstatic mommy wasn’t leaving him every two to three months. I played and laughed with him everyday, until he sleeps.
But it was a pretty pass.
I have witnessed him tumbling down the stairs in a friend’s house. I was right there! There was nothing I could do except to bite my lips from screaming out loud. Hundreds of things that could have happened to him, and my SOPs zoomed through my mind in the flick of seconds. Samuel ran over to pick up our frightened baby, Andrew held out his arms to me. I held him tight, checked him from head to toe. I thank the Almighty that he was not hurt.
Sometimes, I sat on my recliner instead of the wheel chair. Andrew wanted me to follow him to his room and play. I took a piece of my heart and threw it to him, he catches it, pats his own heart. “Mommy is following you now.” My two-year-old walks always without any complaints.
I tried to be the super-mom that I wanted to be, I took Andrew downstairs to play by myself. When I tried to catch a balloon that flew away, I fell head over heals. Andrew was in so much fright that he refused to go anyway alone with me for the longest time.
I suck everything up in the morning, my tears, my frustration, my sorrows. Once Andrew falls asleep, the waterworks ran like tap water, it wouldn’t stop. No one can comfort me, no one could help me, not even Samuel. We have been fighting this battle for years side by side, we were not ready to face the defeat.
I wasn’t ready to talk to anyone about this. I can’t lose my sanity in front of Andrew. He deserves a better mommy and a lot more happiness.
My blue print for being a Mother was to be there for my kid: race in the park, lie on the grass and gaze at the sky, teach him how to swim. When it’s time for school, I want to be friends of his friends, I am going to run for the coolest mom in the whole class.
But now, life isn’t pretty any more.
All good that’s left, was Andrew.
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【填不滿的心】
送你一面鏡子
認真去看看
你是否已經老化
是否已經憔悴
因為你的心一直在奔馳
你的心一直奔跑在曠野中
不知不覺的就流離失所了
最終你得到的就是
一個苦字
你就猶如一艏船
沒有停泊的港口
後來的結果就只有
苦苦苦苦苦
你一直要爬得越高所求越無度
你不知道嗎?
你已經比上不足 比下有餘了
難道你要從那麽高的地方跌下來嗎?
不死也重傷呀
送你一面鏡子
看看是誰一點點一點點地
侵蝕著你
Shifu spoke these words some time ago. There were more but I only managed to take these down.
2600 years ago, Buddha expounded on the Eight Sufferings that every sentient being has to go through, one of which is the devastating suffering of Illness.
It tears apart the person undergoing it and pains the loved ones of the patient.
It doesn't have to be a terminal illness. It doesn't only strike the old.
The mother who grapples with her baby running a 39 °C fever that refuses to go away.
The teenager who has severe acne that ruined her porcelain skin.
The professional whose allergies always act up.
I think the most torturous illness isn't what I wrote above.
But the illness of the mind.
There is no physical medication to cure that.
The young man who masturbates everyday to pornography, exhausting the life essence in his body.
(The quality and quantity of Qi in our bodies have a very direct impact on our fortune in life.)
The woman who sees no wrong in one-night stands with married men.
The old auntie who hoards a roomful of trash.
The amateur who refuses to learn from a virtuous teacher but instead opt to go into Darkness, destroying all possible chances of liberation.
(Or think that one can learn without a teacher.)
My Grandmaster, Living Buddha Lian-Sheng, 蓮生活佛, once said that all of us are mentally sick. Just that we have yet to drop below the clinical standards of "mentally healthy".
I so agree.
If you look around, and look deep inside, the attachments we have within us are all manifestations of sicknesses.
Greed, hatred, ignorance, jealousy, arrogance, suspicion.
Depression, anxiety, anger, obsession, spaced out, suicidal tendencies.
These manifestations can ruin a perfectly healthy body over time.
Only the teachings from the Buddha can transform these attachments into Dharma medication that heal us over time.
I met this middle-aged client for a Bazi consultation in March. During my analysis, she was crying and crying almost non-stop, so much that the waiter came over to serve us a plate of serviettes.
The consultation almost never took place.
Firstly, she contacted me with a dummy FB account.
My mum's advice to the little girl me: never talk to unknown strangers. 😂
Secondly, one day, she did not address me by my name, but just sent me a message.
You know I'm particular about manners when it comes to my client work. I'm not obliged to help you just because you can pay for my time. No one is.
But she was conscientious enough to send me another properly-addressed message.
She told me several times how thankful she was for my advice.
When I asked for her permission to share this text, she hesistated for a long while, but still agreed in the end.
This is one reason why I am especially grateful to clients and readers, who never shy away from Liking my posts with their real FB accounts.
I have this group of clients or readers who never Like anything. They revel in my writings secretly and tell me it is inconvenient/sensitive. Some of them worry what their FB friends, colleagues or family will think of them, if they Like a Feng Shui/Buddhist practitioner's posts.
One guy told me he didn't want to offend his previous Feng Shui master, a FB Friend, despite my advice bringing him more money than the Master's.
I am like their secret lover they hide in a golden mansion.
人,不要虛偽,不要偷偷摸摸。
光明正大最好。
嘴巴就是要拿來解釋的。
If not for those who have Liked my posts, I may not have written so much and so consistently.
So thank you.
#按讚真的是美德 #分享更是功德 😂
Don't get me wrong. I still appreciate the silent readers. 😍
If you suffer from depression and anxiety for a long time and do not know what else to do, I have this free but very effective advice.
1. Don't kill lives.
Be it an ant, a baby or yourself. Saying hurtful words counts. Forbidding another person to learn the Dharma or any good religious teaching counts too.
Every living being has a Buddha nature.
No one wishes to be killed. A killed spirit bears much grievances and will haunt you.
I see too many people with too many black shadows trailing behind them, and these people tend to get emotional/angry easily due to the Yin energy surrounding them.
2. Don't steal.
Whatever that is not yours, don't take.
Don't snatch the spouse of another person.
Don't bring home paper from the company for your son to draw.
Don't swindle money from the company.
Don't sell inferior products for a high price.
Don't sell counterfeits.
Don't do fake accounts to evade taxes.
3. Don't engage in sexual misconduct.
Sex before marriage often leads to abortions or children who are especially hard to teach.
Masturbation isn't a release but often leads to more sexual fantasies, that accumulates negative karma of the body and mind.
Adultery is never okay. Sleeping with married ones is just as dumb.
Don't flirt when you already have a partner or if the other party has. You are not a butterfly nor queen bee.
Do not behave like a wild animal. Or you plant the karmic seed to be reborn as one.
Also, a man who cheats on his wife is very likely to be a bad choice as a business partner. Vice versa.
4. Don't lie.
You are gifted with the ability of speech and writing, not to slander, deceive, gossip, spread rumours or talk nonsense.
When is the last time you use your speaking and writing skills for good?
White lie is still a lie.
Empty promises are also lies.
"Ji Qian! I will contact you for a Feng Shui audit when I come back in May."
I never ask for that. And I don't care when you want to find me. You don't have to lie and get your painfully accumulated merits slashed.
5. Don't drink.
Alcohol can cause a person to commit all the sins above.
.
Bad Feng Shui, failing business, or a turbulent destiny happen when you break the rules of karma.
Repent consistently to undo what you have done wrong. Go spread the word to tell people not to make the same mistakes as you did.
A person who sincerely abides by these 5 precepts will naturally evoke the protection of virtuous gods. Their Yang presence will help drive away the Yin energy enveloping you.
It may take years for some sins to be rectified, so start now.
There are people who pay good money to wear all kinds of protection amulets, but even the most powerful amulet can not fight against Karma.
佛都不能滅因果,鬼神又怎麼可能可以呢?
So learn how to protect yourself from the root.
I can help you, but first you got to help yourself.
Then again, if you have no guilt over what you have done, there is nothing I can do.
The best Feng Shui works most effectively only for the virtuous.
.
Translation of client's message:
Ms Ji Qian
Today is Mother's Day.
May you be healthy and beautiful forever.
And that everything will go your way.
I have no flowers or present for you
But only my best wishes!
Thank you Ms Ji Qian for your teachings.
My mood and emotions are much calmer now.
My brain is clearer now.
I have been doing what you taught and advised.
And I hope to do it better.
Thank you.
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