I’ve done 9 workouts since the month began! I remember fitness being one of my biggest coping mechanisms everytime I had a rough patch in my life. My fitness journey started in 2007 and it had always been a part of my routine and lifestyle ever since. With sponsorships from Nike and later Adidas, it only made sense to align with athletic brands bc it was so central to who I was.
But then I stopped.
Earlier this year, I would detest the idea of working out whenever it was presented to me. My infamous abs have been covered with a layer of shame and speckled with a side personal disgust. I’d work out for work really (no choice since I couldn’t fit into my clothes anymore) but not for myself. This is not to fat-shame people who are a different size, it’s just to say, I was no longer proud of who I am.
I’ve been taking this Chakra course and I learnt that your personal willpower has a limit. I feel like I’m fighting internal fires everyday that when it comes to fighting my brain to get back to my love for fitness, there’s no more willpower left to power it. So I needed to sort other things before I could get back to the old me. Don’t get me wrong, It’s not that I don’t understand the science of how endorphins work, or what kind of mindset you need to have to persevere, but it’s also having the capacity to work on yourself.
So for anyone who’s struggling to just get off your ass, I feel you. I was there just 3 weeks ago! But if you love yourself enough to figure things out, you’ll get there. Thanks @hulk_faba for being the best workout buddy. #workout #healyourself #mindset
